Wowzers Beautiful Mistake is finally over. *Sits back and thinks about the night I was convinced to start it* This was my very first time writing a complete story. How'd I do? I want to thank every single last one of you who supported me from the beginning.
First I have to thank the two people, who without them this story would not be possible. Onika and Safaree. Love those two people to death. Okay now for a FEW TM members:
@TeamMinajCaliii
Thank you for talking me into writing this story. It's because of you i started. You and your STOOPID bedtime story, which I never finished by the way. lol
@PastryOMGminaj
You were the second person to read my story before it went out. Thank you for the constructive criticism in the beginning.
@TrebbleBarbie
BITCHHHHHHH since the day you asked fuh my number we have been inseparable (well phone wise at least. You get my point) We have bonded so much through us writing. You are my brainstorm partner and i really appreciate you letting me bounce ideas off of you and you giving your input as well. I have gained a true friend with you.
@NickisCareBear and @PINKmunyBARBIE
You two know how to hound a sistah fuh a chapta chile *ratchet voice* lol But really Shonda it was times where I felt like just ending this story like... *thinks* 30 chapters ago and you would call or tweet me nagging and pleading for a chapter. It made me feel like maybe I had something good on my hands. You and Muny are greatness. Muah.
To the people I know read:
@CandaceMinaj, @StillIRiseTM, @SoftLykeButta, @DejuannaXD, @Fetchtorious, @flawlessbarb, @DarkskinndBarbie, @malaminj, @BrooklenBarbie, @IRepMinaj, @SwaggaficBarbie, @SoPinkBarbie, @MASHINGTONMINAJ, @Littlebabyminaj, @lilmomominaj, @Jessie_Barbie, @Barb_thebad (crazy ass lol), @xoromanslover, @Preezybaybe, @Ibodyybitches, @MONAY_TM, @Burrrbarbie, @PROUDnika, @SHADEnika, @BillboardNika (ratchet asses lol), @Teamminavvs, @Tina_minaj, @teamminaj VA SA PA _Pcola Irmo Kee _Htown, @CodePink_, @Minajeh_that, @JacyMinaj, @ImNisiMinaj, @TaylorBarbiie, @Fuckyeaitsminaj, @MissMinaj341, @Nickisaiddis, @Armybratbarbie, @paralleltonone_, @deenaminaj, @Nickimemphis, @Iamnickisbarb, @Jamrock_barbie, @teaminajflorida, @colorrmepink, @savemebarb, @itsteamminajhoe, @Jamaicaz_barb, @cometomyrescue1, @teamminaj_PYB, @Teamminaj_jessi, @Bawsenika, @itsme_notyu, @ifuwannaminaj, @teamminajordie, @rosieukbarbiee, @minajmyshai, @Ithrive4nicki, @nickisboyboy, @BrittanyminajMN, @ilalalovenicki, @iheartnicki_tm, @Diditonembarbie @lotusflowrb0mb
If I forgot you I am so very sorry. But know you don't go unappreciated! Muah
Thank you all so much for riding with me through this emotional ass story, especially the ones that have been here through the beginning. You have seen me grow in my writing skills, I know they were horrid in the beginning! lol! I know I'm probably all types of bitches and hoes in the comments and DMs of the last story for the ending but I will expect apologies in the comments below because below is the link to the new story Bound To You! Make sure you follow it when you click on it. You couldn't have possibly thought I could end it like that, its ONIKAFAREE BITCHHHHHHHHHHH! *Tears then Takes Bow*
Link:
http://boundtoyouonikafaree.blogspot.com/?zx=d41a9a201e5dd186
Monday, January 2, 2012
Don't Think This Hasn't Been Fabulous...
*Enjoy Barbs and Ken Barbs! Muah*
Nicki woke up to the sound of her phone going off. She looked at the clock it read four-forty in the morning. She rolled over and picked up.
"Hello." she said into the receiver yawning afterwards. "Hello?" she asked again when no one said anything. "It's to early in the morning to be playing these games. Stop calling my phone who ever you are." she hung up. Thunder roared outside and lighting cracked. Nicki sat up in her bed and stretched. Nicki had been receiving phone calls from different numbers at weird times of the night but they never said anything, she just heard breathing. She had a felling it was Melanie, seeing as how when she was in a coma she told her she would never let her get a moments rest if she stayed with Safaree. Melanie told her she would hurt their kids if it came down to it, she wanted Safaree and it was nothing she wouldn't do to get and keep him. She wanted to tell Safaree but she didn't want him going after her himself. When she finally got up enough courage to tell him she couldn't because he found out about her taking the pills.
Nicki heard a something break downstairs. She got up slipping on her PJ bottoms and went to go see what had happened. She got to the bottom of the stairs she was startled by a certain burst of thunder. She calmed herself and entered the kitchen. She seen the glass vase that was sitting on the table had been knocked over. She looked up and seen a window was open, she figured the wind must have blew and knocked it over. She shut the window still not remembering when she opened it but she had been drinking so much still that she didn't put it past herself to have opened it.
She turned around to go upstairs when someone grabbed her by her neck and began squeezing. Her first instinct was to grab the hand around her neck.
"Let..go...of...me." she managed to get out. Nicki reached out to try and defend herself but the person tightened their grip so her hands shot back to her neck. The pair struggled and went to the ground. The person fell on top of Nicki still having a hold of her neck. "Please just let me go." Nicki said. She was starting to lose consciousness.
"I should have killed you when I had the chance months ago." Nicki felt the assailants finger nails and noticed they were manicured.
"Melanie?" Was the last thing Nicki said before she passed out.
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"I can't do it."
"Yes you can Nicki, I'm right here with you."
"I can't Safaree." She cried.
"I'm right here. Look at me." She turned her head and looked him in the eyes. "I'm right here, we are almost there."
"Okay." she said.
"Alright give me a big push baby girl." Nicki pushed as hard as she could. "I see a head full of hair, give me another one." She pushed gritting her teeth.
"GET IT OUT!" She yelled.
"Calm down Nicki, you are almost there." Safaree said.
"One more honey." She pushed again she heard her baby crying. "We have our other baby girl." She handed her over to April.
"Baby you're doing so well, one more to go and we have our three blessings. Are you ready?"
"No it hurts so bad, I can't do that again."
"You got this babe, you have come so far."
"I don't want to hear that Safaree, you're not the one in PAIN!" she shouted.
"If I could do this for you I would but I can't so bare through it and get the last baby here."
"Hold on don't push." Dr. Reynolds said. Both looked at her with concern.
"Why what's wrong?" Safaree asked.
"It hasn't dropped down from its position, this might be one of the rare moments in pregnancy."
"What does that mean?" Nicki asked.
"I think it might of fell asleep."
"It can do that while in active labor?" Safaree questioned.
"Well wake it up." Nicki said through her gritted teeth. Dr. Reynolds took off her gloves and placed her hands on both sides of Nickis stomach and shook it really quickly. Nicki felt a weird movement in her stomach then felt something pressing against her bladder. "I think it's down." the doctor put on more gloves and went back down.
"Nicki....Nicki can you hear me?" She heard Lauren saying. Nicki opened her eyes and waited for her vision to focus.
"Whe..where am I?"
"The hospital."
"Again? What happen?" She sat up in the bed. Her neck hurt, she touched it and had a flashback of early this morning. "Oh my God Lauren." Her hand flew to her mouth.
"Don't cry Nicki, everything will be alright."
"Why is everyone so against me? What have I ever done to any, to deserve the things that have happened to me?"
"Nicki think about all the good that has happened to you, far out weighs the bad."
"When the bad stuff is surrounding you everyday it's hard to see the good things." Nicki took the tissue Lauren handed her. "Who found me?" Lauren looked away. "Lauren...who found me"
"Drake."
Waiting Room
You could cut the tension in the room with a knife it was so thick. One side of the room you had Nickis family, Candi, the Vaks, Wayne, Baby, Slim, and Safaree. On the other you had Drake and bunch of empty seats. No one knew what to say, on one hand he was the one who had brought so much chaos to their lives but he did find Nicki and practically saved her life.
"Listen everyone I know you don't want me here but I love Nicki just like you." Safaree stood clenching his fist. Robert got up and said something inn a low voice to Safaree. Safaree looked at Drake and walked down the hall.
"Son I suggest if you gone stay here then you don't need to say anything else." Robert walked down the hall following Safaree. Everyone else just stared at Drake, he was bright red. A doctor came out and the family stood.
"Mrs. Maraj." he said looking at the crowd in front of him.
"That's me."
"Hi ma'ma. I wanted t let you know that your daughter is fine. She has bruising around her neck but it should fade in a week or so." the waiting room was filled with Thank Yous.
"Can I go back and see her?" Safaree and Robert walked back up.
"She said she would like to see the young man that found her."
"WHAT?" everyone turned to Safaree who was the source of the outburst.
"Calm down SB." Robert said.
"This is BS and you know it sir. He shouldn't be allowed within 500 miles of her."
"She wants to see him, there is nothing we can do about it." Drake got up and walked back with the doctor.
The doctor walked Drake back to Nickis room then left back down the hall. Drake pushed through the doors and seen Lauren sitting next to Nicki on the bed. Lauren mean mugged him then looked back at Nicki.
"Are you sure you want to do this?"
"It's the least I can do, he saved me."
"No, it was the least HE could do. Let's not forget his dumb ass emotions is the reason your here."
"Lauren just give us a minute."
"I'm not leaving this room. I don't trust him as far as I can throw him." Lauren sat on the other bed in the room.
"Fine Lauren." Nicki said. "Come sit down." Drake came around to the side of the bed and sat in the chair. "Okay you said you wanted me to listen to you, you have the floor say everything you need to say." Drake looked over at Lauren who just stared back at him. "She's not going to leave so you might as well speak."
"Listen Nicki I've come to terms with the fact that you don't see me in a romantic way. But I will still like to be friends. Me and you have had a bond since the first day we met years ago, I just want to get back to that. We used to have so much fun together. The mini parties we threw in the back of the tour bus." He smiled when she smiled. "I just need you to know that I know it was a dumb and idiotic stunt I pulled last year, and if you give me the chance i will try my best to make it up to you. You didn't have to defend me and protect me when it came to me going to jail and you did, when everyone was telling you you were a fool for it. I still don't know why you did it but know I'm grateful. I don't want us to have a strained relationship Nic. I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart, I never wanted to hurt you. You mean so much to me and if I would have known that girl was off her rocker I wouldn't have fucked with her, she said she just wanted to help me. I put you and your children in danger. Please find it in your heart to just move passed this and let us make more great memories together." Drake took her hand.
"Are you finished?" Nicki asked. It was a rude way nor was it nonchalant, just a question.
"Yeah I guess."
"Listen Drake you are right, me and you had a bond since day one of us meeting. Both being new to the game you often understood what was going through my head when everyone else couldn't. You were more than a friend I looked at you as if you were family Drake. The bond that we shared was broken the day you decided it was okay to not only kidnap me but while i was pregnant as well. I'm sure that I will always have a place in my heart for you but I don't trust you anymore Drake. And If I can't trust you we can't be friends. I have forgiven you and moved on from the whole situation. I wish you well in your life but please like i said at my signing if it is not about business do not contact me. I greatly appreciate that you found me and got the ambulance quickly but really, there is nothing else for us to speak about." Nicki took her hand from his and placed back in her lap.
"I have to respect that. You let me say my peace, so I'll leave you to your family." Drake stood and leaned over kissing Nicki on her cheek. "I still and will always love you." he whispered in her ear then left.
Walking out to the waiting room everyones eyes were on him, he made contact with Safarees.
"You don't have to worry about me anymore. I won't interfere ever again." he walked out of the hospital.
"Safaree go on back and see how she is doing?" Mrs. Maraj said. He thought about it.
"Naw I'm going to go back to the house and see about the kids. Tell I was here and that I'm happy she is okay." he put on his shades and left the hospital.
Everyone went back to go check on Nicki, when they entered the room Nicki looked for Safaree and when she didn't see him she got sad. Her mom saw the disappointment in her eyes.
"He said he was glad to hear you were okay. He went back home with the babies."
"Okay." she said in a small voice.
"Nicki go ahead and tell them what you told me." Lauren said. Nicki took a deep breath.
"Melanie is the one who attacked me. Back when I was in a coma she came to the hospital and told me that she would hurt me if I didn't leave Safaree and she would hurt the children as well." Safaree had been standing in the door way when she made the confession.
"Why didn't you tell someone? When did you remember this?" Her father asked.
"A couple weeks before the CD signing." She looked over towards the door and they locked eyes. Safaree walked out the door pissed. She sighed. "Did the doctor say when I could go?" Just then the doctor walked in and announced that she could be released as soon as she signed the forms that were in his hand.
Nickis House
"I'm fine you guys stop fussing over me." she had been home for an hour and hadn't been allowed to do a thing. She wanted her house to herself. Her mom fluffed the pillows behind her for the fifth time. "Mom go home, I'm fine."
"I just want you to be comfortable. Keep your curtains closed, the paps are still out there." When Nicki was released from the hospital the paps had been all over her. She put her moms scarf around her neck so they wouldn't see it.
"I will mom, I want to get some rest. If I need you then I will call you."
"Carol let me talk to her really fast." Nickis father said.
"Sure. Goodbye baby." she walked out.
"Hows my baby girl?" he sat next to her on the bed.
"I'm fine daddy."
"I know you have been going through a rough time these last couple of weeks. Nobody wanted to tell me what was wrong but I eventually figured it out. I just want to let you know that addiction is a serious thing and If not treated quickly get get real bad real fast." Nicki tensed. "Now I'm not calling you and addict baby, I'm just letting you know something I have been through. I want you to get your rest, and begin letting your body and mind heal. I know you are wanting Safaree to be here for you but you have to give him time. He was there for you when I was out doing my thing and has seen what drugs can do to a person. I can tell you right now it scared him to see you in that condition. He couldn't stand to watch you like that." Nicki looked at her hands. "Alright, give me my hug and I will get out of your hair." She leaned over and hugged him tight.
"Thank you daddy."
"It is never a problem baby girl. Anytime you need to talk know I'm only a phone call or a drive away." He let her go and left.
Three Hours Later
Nicki woke up to someone nudging her. She buried herself deeper into her bed. They nudged her again.
"Whattttt?" she asked.
"Get up and eat." her eyes popped open at the voice. She pulled the covers from over head. Safaree was standing with a plate of baked salmon. She sat up taking the plate, he sat her water next to her on the nightstand.
"What are you doing here?"
"Taking care of my friend because obviously she can't take care of herself." She looked down not saying anything. "Look I don't mean to be an asshole but I'm not completely over what happened." he walked towards the door.
"Are you leaving?"
"No I'm staying here with you for awhile. Your mom thinks it's best and she has done so much for me I felt it only right to do the one thing she asked of me." again she was silent.
"Okay."
"When you are done let me know so I can come get the plate. I'll try and keep the babies as quiet as I can."
"They're here." She smiled.
"Yeah. Your parents have done enough babysitting. I can take care of them."
"I can too you know?" she looked down.
"When you aren't drunk maybe." she looked towards the window. "I'm sorry." he left before he said something else hurtful. He didn't try to say the things but he had never been one to hold his tongue about how he felt. He would try and control it for her, he knew she was in a fragile state of being in her life.
Later that Night
Safaree had been sleep in his room for a couple of hours. He woke up because he had a feeling, he didn't know of what he just had a feeling. He rolled over looking at the door, it was still closed. He rolled back over and that's when he seen what the feeling was, he was being watched.
Nicki sat in the chair in the corner of his room and was staring at him.
"Are you okay? Does your neck hurt or something, I can rub some more of the cream on it if you want me too. He sat up in the bed.
"No my neck is fine, i couldn't sleep. Can I sleep with you?" he just stared at her for awhile. "Never mind I'll go back to my room." she got up, walking out.
"No, you can sleep with me, it's fine." she stopped.
"Are you sure? I don't want to make you uncomfortable."
He pulled back the covers for her to get in. "Come on." she climbed in and got under the covers. "You comfortable?" she shook her head yes. Both laid there staring at the ceiling, wanting to say so much but not wanting to make the other angry.
"Safaree?"
"Yeah?"
"Can you hold me?" she felt his strong arms circle around her waist. "Safaree?"
"Yes?"
"Where did you go when you left the hospital?"
"I went to go meet up with some people to put the word out about Melanie. If they find her they know what to do."
"I don't want you caught up in no drama SB."
"I won't be, now go to sleep Nicki." she closed her eyes. She felt safe with him.
2 Months Later
The babies had been running them like crazy. Most babies don't learn to stand up till about seven months and begin walking at 9 months. No not these here babies. They all three decided they wanted to stand and walk about a week ago. They were teetering still but walking, SB and Nicki couldn't believe it. The doctor said it was very uncommon but not impossible for them to do it at three months. Once they got the hang of it it was no stopping them. They hurried and put up the safety gates around the house.
Safaree and Nicki had argued for the first month of him coming back to stay with her. Both starting arguments for no reason just to get the other one riled up. It came to a point where they wouldn't even speak. Just moved around each other in their daily routine. Nicki took some advice from her father and went to therapy. She went to her therapist she had used while she was pregnant. She was still afraid Melanie would come back and hurt her and the babies but since the night she attacked her she hadn't surfaced again. When she began her sessions that's when things got better for them. Their friendship got back to where it used to be and strengthened as well. Their relationship as boyfriend and girlfriend was a different story.
"Can I speak with you downstairs?" Safaree asked Nicki. She was in Ethans room putting him down for a nap.
"Sure I'll be down in a minute." she had a feeling of what was too come, but was hoping he wouldn't.
Nicki descended the stairs and went into the living room and seen Safaree on the couch. She went to go sit in the chair.
"No come sit by me." he said reaching out his hand for her. She sat on the opposite end of the couch. "So I--"
"Safaree please don't try and take my kids from me. I promise I'll do better, I really am trying. I'll do whatever it is you want but those kids are my everything, if you take them I don't know what I'm going to do. I went through a rough time but I'm back and I'm not ever going back to that place again. If it's the pills you are worried about, then I'll take a drug test every week if you want. I haven't taken one since the day you put them down the sink. I realize i messed up, I messed up bad but please don't crucify me for it." A single tear ran down her cheek.
"Are you done?" she shook her head yes. He scooted closer to her taking her hand in his. "Nicki I would never take them from you." he gave a sigh of relief. "I know the type of person you are, you are loving, kind and caring. You couldn't hurt a child if you tried, you love kids." she squeezed his hand, she needed to hear those words from him, she thought he had lost faith in her. "I just need for you to get yourself together and I see you have." he moved her hair out of her face. "The things I said to you the day we had the fight about the pills, i didn't mean any of it. I said it out of anger, I thought you had hurt my...our kids by taking them so I wanted to make you hurt. That comment about you being like your father was a low blow and for that I am sorry, I hope you will forgive me. You are a wonderful mother, and I have never thought otherwise, again I said to make you hurt. I hope you will forgive me." she threw her arms around his neck.
"I forgive you Safaree." he hugged her back. Both loved the other being in their arms. Safaree pushed her away from him slightly.
"There is more."
She sat back putting her hands in her lap. She didn't know what he could possibly have to tell her.
"I'm going to move out Nicki. I can't be with you like this anymore. I will be here everyday for my kids and anything they or you need I will provide." Nicki stared at him.
"I knew this was coming, we haven't been good for a while now like you said." he moved closer to her.
"I just don't think it's good for us anymore."
"You'll still be my hype man right? I can't do this without you."
"If you'll still have me I would love too. You are still my best friend no matter what. I told you that before we got into this relationship."
Nicki nodded her head letting her tears fall. She didn't want it to end like this but it was obvious she didn't know how to be about her children, craft, him, and her fans. So she would let him go if that's what he wished. He reached over and wiped her cheek with his finger.
"Don't cry it's not like I'm going anywhere, I just won't be in your house or bed anymore."
"I'll have to get use to that. I've never not had you live with me in my adult life, and as for you in my bed, well let's just say you will be missed at night." He smiled at her.
"I'm sure you can find someone to fill my void."
"I'm sure i could too but you were the best for me."
"And you for me in more ways than one. It's just not our time and we have to come to terms with that."
"I guess you are right. Friends?" she stuck out her hand. He just looked at it.
"Best." He pulled her in for a hug. Nicki took in his scent knowing she wouldn't be able to be this close to him for awhile. One of the baby monitors made noise and they broke from each other.
"That would be Ethan, that boy has a pair of lungs on him." Safaree said. "I'll go check on him." He kissed Nicki on the cheek and went upstairs.
Nicki pulled her legs to her chest and silently cried to herself. She knew she could never find another and that's what hurt her the most. She had strained the longest relationship she has had with a man, all by herself. She would neglect him at times for others that weren't as nearly as important has him.
"Nicki the girls are up now too, I need help." Safaree said into the baby monitor. She pulled herself together before going up the stairs.
"Just give him time." She said to herself. "That's all he needs." She wanted it to be true but wasn't so sure but when she had nothing else she had hope. So she would hold onto that and the great memories they had together. For her it would always be OnikaFaree.
*Wow I can't believe this is the last chapter. Leave a comment, even if you have never left one before please leave one, then meet me in the thank yous.*
VISUALS
Drake and Nicki w/ others on the tour bus way back when!
http://www.myspace.com/video/shanell-aka-snl/young-money-shanell-drake-nikki-bus-party/53955379
Nicki woke up to the sound of her phone going off. She looked at the clock it read four-forty in the morning. She rolled over and picked up.
"Hello." she said into the receiver yawning afterwards. "Hello?" she asked again when no one said anything. "It's to early in the morning to be playing these games. Stop calling my phone who ever you are." she hung up. Thunder roared outside and lighting cracked. Nicki sat up in her bed and stretched. Nicki had been receiving phone calls from different numbers at weird times of the night but they never said anything, she just heard breathing. She had a felling it was Melanie, seeing as how when she was in a coma she told her she would never let her get a moments rest if she stayed with Safaree. Melanie told her she would hurt their kids if it came down to it, she wanted Safaree and it was nothing she wouldn't do to get and keep him. She wanted to tell Safaree but she didn't want him going after her himself. When she finally got up enough courage to tell him she couldn't because he found out about her taking the pills.
Nicki heard a something break downstairs. She got up slipping on her PJ bottoms and went to go see what had happened. She got to the bottom of the stairs she was startled by a certain burst of thunder. She calmed herself and entered the kitchen. She seen the glass vase that was sitting on the table had been knocked over. She looked up and seen a window was open, she figured the wind must have blew and knocked it over. She shut the window still not remembering when she opened it but she had been drinking so much still that she didn't put it past herself to have opened it.
She turned around to go upstairs when someone grabbed her by her neck and began squeezing. Her first instinct was to grab the hand around her neck.
"Let..go...of...me." she managed to get out. Nicki reached out to try and defend herself but the person tightened their grip so her hands shot back to her neck. The pair struggled and went to the ground. The person fell on top of Nicki still having a hold of her neck. "Please just let me go." Nicki said. She was starting to lose consciousness.
"I should have killed you when I had the chance months ago." Nicki felt the assailants finger nails and noticed they were manicured.
"Melanie?" Was the last thing Nicki said before she passed out.
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"I can't do it."
"Yes you can Nicki, I'm right here with you."
"I can't Safaree." She cried.
"I'm right here. Look at me." She turned her head and looked him in the eyes. "I'm right here, we are almost there."
"Okay." she said.
"Alright give me a big push baby girl." Nicki pushed as hard as she could. "I see a head full of hair, give me another one." She pushed gritting her teeth.
"GET IT OUT!" She yelled.
"Calm down Nicki, you are almost there." Safaree said.
"One more honey." She pushed again she heard her baby crying. "We have our other baby girl." She handed her over to April.
"Baby you're doing so well, one more to go and we have our three blessings. Are you ready?"
"No it hurts so bad, I can't do that again."
"You got this babe, you have come so far."
"I don't want to hear that Safaree, you're not the one in PAIN!" she shouted.
"If I could do this for you I would but I can't so bare through it and get the last baby here."
"Hold on don't push." Dr. Reynolds said. Both looked at her with concern.
"Why what's wrong?" Safaree asked.
"It hasn't dropped down from its position, this might be one of the rare moments in pregnancy."
"What does that mean?" Nicki asked.
"I think it might of fell asleep."
"It can do that while in active labor?" Safaree questioned.
"Well wake it up." Nicki said through her gritted teeth. Dr. Reynolds took off her gloves and placed her hands on both sides of Nickis stomach and shook it really quickly. Nicki felt a weird movement in her stomach then felt something pressing against her bladder. "I think it's down." the doctor put on more gloves and went back down.
"Nicki....Nicki can you hear me?" She heard Lauren saying. Nicki opened her eyes and waited for her vision to focus.
"Whe..where am I?"
"The hospital."
"Again? What happen?" She sat up in the bed. Her neck hurt, she touched it and had a flashback of early this morning. "Oh my God Lauren." Her hand flew to her mouth.
"Don't cry Nicki, everything will be alright."
"Why is everyone so against me? What have I ever done to any, to deserve the things that have happened to me?"
"Nicki think about all the good that has happened to you, far out weighs the bad."
"When the bad stuff is surrounding you everyday it's hard to see the good things." Nicki took the tissue Lauren handed her. "Who found me?" Lauren looked away. "Lauren...who found me"
"Drake."
Waiting Room
You could cut the tension in the room with a knife it was so thick. One side of the room you had Nickis family, Candi, the Vaks, Wayne, Baby, Slim, and Safaree. On the other you had Drake and bunch of empty seats. No one knew what to say, on one hand he was the one who had brought so much chaos to their lives but he did find Nicki and practically saved her life.
"Listen everyone I know you don't want me here but I love Nicki just like you." Safaree stood clenching his fist. Robert got up and said something inn a low voice to Safaree. Safaree looked at Drake and walked down the hall.
"Son I suggest if you gone stay here then you don't need to say anything else." Robert walked down the hall following Safaree. Everyone else just stared at Drake, he was bright red. A doctor came out and the family stood.
"Mrs. Maraj." he said looking at the crowd in front of him.
"That's me."
"Hi ma'ma. I wanted t let you know that your daughter is fine. She has bruising around her neck but it should fade in a week or so." the waiting room was filled with Thank Yous.
"Can I go back and see her?" Safaree and Robert walked back up.
"She said she would like to see the young man that found her."
"WHAT?" everyone turned to Safaree who was the source of the outburst.
"Calm down SB." Robert said.
"This is BS and you know it sir. He shouldn't be allowed within 500 miles of her."
"She wants to see him, there is nothing we can do about it." Drake got up and walked back with the doctor.
The doctor walked Drake back to Nickis room then left back down the hall. Drake pushed through the doors and seen Lauren sitting next to Nicki on the bed. Lauren mean mugged him then looked back at Nicki.
"Are you sure you want to do this?"
"It's the least I can do, he saved me."
"No, it was the least HE could do. Let's not forget his dumb ass emotions is the reason your here."
"Lauren just give us a minute."
"I'm not leaving this room. I don't trust him as far as I can throw him." Lauren sat on the other bed in the room.
"Fine Lauren." Nicki said. "Come sit down." Drake came around to the side of the bed and sat in the chair. "Okay you said you wanted me to listen to you, you have the floor say everything you need to say." Drake looked over at Lauren who just stared back at him. "She's not going to leave so you might as well speak."
"Listen Nicki I've come to terms with the fact that you don't see me in a romantic way. But I will still like to be friends. Me and you have had a bond since the first day we met years ago, I just want to get back to that. We used to have so much fun together. The mini parties we threw in the back of the tour bus." He smiled when she smiled. "I just need you to know that I know it was a dumb and idiotic stunt I pulled last year, and if you give me the chance i will try my best to make it up to you. You didn't have to defend me and protect me when it came to me going to jail and you did, when everyone was telling you you were a fool for it. I still don't know why you did it but know I'm grateful. I don't want us to have a strained relationship Nic. I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart, I never wanted to hurt you. You mean so much to me and if I would have known that girl was off her rocker I wouldn't have fucked with her, she said she just wanted to help me. I put you and your children in danger. Please find it in your heart to just move passed this and let us make more great memories together." Drake took her hand.
"Are you finished?" Nicki asked. It was a rude way nor was it nonchalant, just a question.
"Yeah I guess."
"Listen Drake you are right, me and you had a bond since day one of us meeting. Both being new to the game you often understood what was going through my head when everyone else couldn't. You were more than a friend I looked at you as if you were family Drake. The bond that we shared was broken the day you decided it was okay to not only kidnap me but while i was pregnant as well. I'm sure that I will always have a place in my heart for you but I don't trust you anymore Drake. And If I can't trust you we can't be friends. I have forgiven you and moved on from the whole situation. I wish you well in your life but please like i said at my signing if it is not about business do not contact me. I greatly appreciate that you found me and got the ambulance quickly but really, there is nothing else for us to speak about." Nicki took her hand from his and placed back in her lap.
"I have to respect that. You let me say my peace, so I'll leave you to your family." Drake stood and leaned over kissing Nicki on her cheek. "I still and will always love you." he whispered in her ear then left.
Walking out to the waiting room everyones eyes were on him, he made contact with Safarees.
"You don't have to worry about me anymore. I won't interfere ever again." he walked out of the hospital.
"Safaree go on back and see how she is doing?" Mrs. Maraj said. He thought about it.
"Naw I'm going to go back to the house and see about the kids. Tell I was here and that I'm happy she is okay." he put on his shades and left the hospital.
Everyone went back to go check on Nicki, when they entered the room Nicki looked for Safaree and when she didn't see him she got sad. Her mom saw the disappointment in her eyes.
"He said he was glad to hear you were okay. He went back home with the babies."
"Okay." she said in a small voice.
"Nicki go ahead and tell them what you told me." Lauren said. Nicki took a deep breath.
"Melanie is the one who attacked me. Back when I was in a coma she came to the hospital and told me that she would hurt me if I didn't leave Safaree and she would hurt the children as well." Safaree had been standing in the door way when she made the confession.
"Why didn't you tell someone? When did you remember this?" Her father asked.
"A couple weeks before the CD signing." She looked over towards the door and they locked eyes. Safaree walked out the door pissed. She sighed. "Did the doctor say when I could go?" Just then the doctor walked in and announced that she could be released as soon as she signed the forms that were in his hand.
Nickis House
"I'm fine you guys stop fussing over me." she had been home for an hour and hadn't been allowed to do a thing. She wanted her house to herself. Her mom fluffed the pillows behind her for the fifth time. "Mom go home, I'm fine."
"I just want you to be comfortable. Keep your curtains closed, the paps are still out there." When Nicki was released from the hospital the paps had been all over her. She put her moms scarf around her neck so they wouldn't see it.
"I will mom, I want to get some rest. If I need you then I will call you."
"Carol let me talk to her really fast." Nickis father said.
"Sure. Goodbye baby." she walked out.
"Hows my baby girl?" he sat next to her on the bed.
"I'm fine daddy."
"I know you have been going through a rough time these last couple of weeks. Nobody wanted to tell me what was wrong but I eventually figured it out. I just want to let you know that addiction is a serious thing and If not treated quickly get get real bad real fast." Nicki tensed. "Now I'm not calling you and addict baby, I'm just letting you know something I have been through. I want you to get your rest, and begin letting your body and mind heal. I know you are wanting Safaree to be here for you but you have to give him time. He was there for you when I was out doing my thing and has seen what drugs can do to a person. I can tell you right now it scared him to see you in that condition. He couldn't stand to watch you like that." Nicki looked at her hands. "Alright, give me my hug and I will get out of your hair." She leaned over and hugged him tight.
"Thank you daddy."
"It is never a problem baby girl. Anytime you need to talk know I'm only a phone call or a drive away." He let her go and left.
Three Hours Later
Nicki woke up to someone nudging her. She buried herself deeper into her bed. They nudged her again.
"Whattttt?" she asked.
"Get up and eat." her eyes popped open at the voice. She pulled the covers from over head. Safaree was standing with a plate of baked salmon. She sat up taking the plate, he sat her water next to her on the nightstand.
"What are you doing here?"
"Taking care of my friend because obviously she can't take care of herself." She looked down not saying anything. "Look I don't mean to be an asshole but I'm not completely over what happened." he walked towards the door.
"Are you leaving?"
"No I'm staying here with you for awhile. Your mom thinks it's best and she has done so much for me I felt it only right to do the one thing she asked of me." again she was silent.
"Okay."
"When you are done let me know so I can come get the plate. I'll try and keep the babies as quiet as I can."
"They're here." She smiled.
"Yeah. Your parents have done enough babysitting. I can take care of them."
"I can too you know?" she looked down.
"When you aren't drunk maybe." she looked towards the window. "I'm sorry." he left before he said something else hurtful. He didn't try to say the things but he had never been one to hold his tongue about how he felt. He would try and control it for her, he knew she was in a fragile state of being in her life.
Later that Night
Safaree had been sleep in his room for a couple of hours. He woke up because he had a feeling, he didn't know of what he just had a feeling. He rolled over looking at the door, it was still closed. He rolled back over and that's when he seen what the feeling was, he was being watched.
Nicki sat in the chair in the corner of his room and was staring at him.
"Are you okay? Does your neck hurt or something, I can rub some more of the cream on it if you want me too. He sat up in the bed.
"No my neck is fine, i couldn't sleep. Can I sleep with you?" he just stared at her for awhile. "Never mind I'll go back to my room." she got up, walking out.
"No, you can sleep with me, it's fine." she stopped.
"Are you sure? I don't want to make you uncomfortable."
He pulled back the covers for her to get in. "Come on." she climbed in and got under the covers. "You comfortable?" she shook her head yes. Both laid there staring at the ceiling, wanting to say so much but not wanting to make the other angry.
"Safaree?"
"Yeah?"
"Can you hold me?" she felt his strong arms circle around her waist. "Safaree?"
"Yes?"
"Where did you go when you left the hospital?"
"I went to go meet up with some people to put the word out about Melanie. If they find her they know what to do."
"I don't want you caught up in no drama SB."
"I won't be, now go to sleep Nicki." she closed her eyes. She felt safe with him.
2 Months Later
The babies had been running them like crazy. Most babies don't learn to stand up till about seven months and begin walking at 9 months. No not these here babies. They all three decided they wanted to stand and walk about a week ago. They were teetering still but walking, SB and Nicki couldn't believe it. The doctor said it was very uncommon but not impossible for them to do it at three months. Once they got the hang of it it was no stopping them. They hurried and put up the safety gates around the house.
Safaree and Nicki had argued for the first month of him coming back to stay with her. Both starting arguments for no reason just to get the other one riled up. It came to a point where they wouldn't even speak. Just moved around each other in their daily routine. Nicki took some advice from her father and went to therapy. She went to her therapist she had used while she was pregnant. She was still afraid Melanie would come back and hurt her and the babies but since the night she attacked her she hadn't surfaced again. When she began her sessions that's when things got better for them. Their friendship got back to where it used to be and strengthened as well. Their relationship as boyfriend and girlfriend was a different story.
"Can I speak with you downstairs?" Safaree asked Nicki. She was in Ethans room putting him down for a nap.
"Sure I'll be down in a minute." she had a feeling of what was too come, but was hoping he wouldn't.
Nicki descended the stairs and went into the living room and seen Safaree on the couch. She went to go sit in the chair.
"No come sit by me." he said reaching out his hand for her. She sat on the opposite end of the couch. "So I--"
"Safaree please don't try and take my kids from me. I promise I'll do better, I really am trying. I'll do whatever it is you want but those kids are my everything, if you take them I don't know what I'm going to do. I went through a rough time but I'm back and I'm not ever going back to that place again. If it's the pills you are worried about, then I'll take a drug test every week if you want. I haven't taken one since the day you put them down the sink. I realize i messed up, I messed up bad but please don't crucify me for it." A single tear ran down her cheek.
"Are you done?" she shook her head yes. He scooted closer to her taking her hand in his. "Nicki I would never take them from you." he gave a sigh of relief. "I know the type of person you are, you are loving, kind and caring. You couldn't hurt a child if you tried, you love kids." she squeezed his hand, she needed to hear those words from him, she thought he had lost faith in her. "I just need for you to get yourself together and I see you have." he moved her hair out of her face. "The things I said to you the day we had the fight about the pills, i didn't mean any of it. I said it out of anger, I thought you had hurt my...our kids by taking them so I wanted to make you hurt. That comment about you being like your father was a low blow and for that I am sorry, I hope you will forgive me. You are a wonderful mother, and I have never thought otherwise, again I said to make you hurt. I hope you will forgive me." she threw her arms around his neck.
"I forgive you Safaree." he hugged her back. Both loved the other being in their arms. Safaree pushed her away from him slightly.
"There is more."
She sat back putting her hands in her lap. She didn't know what he could possibly have to tell her.
"I'm going to move out Nicki. I can't be with you like this anymore. I will be here everyday for my kids and anything they or you need I will provide." Nicki stared at him.
"I knew this was coming, we haven't been good for a while now like you said." he moved closer to her.
"I just don't think it's good for us anymore."
"You'll still be my hype man right? I can't do this without you."
"If you'll still have me I would love too. You are still my best friend no matter what. I told you that before we got into this relationship."
Nicki nodded her head letting her tears fall. She didn't want it to end like this but it was obvious she didn't know how to be about her children, craft, him, and her fans. So she would let him go if that's what he wished. He reached over and wiped her cheek with his finger.
"Don't cry it's not like I'm going anywhere, I just won't be in your house or bed anymore."
"I'll have to get use to that. I've never not had you live with me in my adult life, and as for you in my bed, well let's just say you will be missed at night." He smiled at her.
"I'm sure you can find someone to fill my void."
"I'm sure i could too but you were the best for me."
"And you for me in more ways than one. It's just not our time and we have to come to terms with that."
"I guess you are right. Friends?" she stuck out her hand. He just looked at it.
"Best." He pulled her in for a hug. Nicki took in his scent knowing she wouldn't be able to be this close to him for awhile. One of the baby monitors made noise and they broke from each other.
"That would be Ethan, that boy has a pair of lungs on him." Safaree said. "I'll go check on him." He kissed Nicki on the cheek and went upstairs.
Nicki pulled her legs to her chest and silently cried to herself. She knew she could never find another and that's what hurt her the most. She had strained the longest relationship she has had with a man, all by herself. She would neglect him at times for others that weren't as nearly as important has him.
"Nicki the girls are up now too, I need help." Safaree said into the baby monitor. She pulled herself together before going up the stairs.
"Just give him time." She said to herself. "That's all he needs." She wanted it to be true but wasn't so sure but when she had nothing else she had hope. So she would hold onto that and the great memories they had together. For her it would always be OnikaFaree.
*Wow I can't believe this is the last chapter. Leave a comment, even if you have never left one before please leave one, then meet me in the thank yous.*
VISUALS
Drake and Nicki w/ others on the tour bus way back when!
http://www.myspace.com/video/shanell-aka-snl/young-money-shanell-drake-nikki-bus-party/53955379
Sunday, January 1, 2012
The Storm Before the Calm...
*I'm still spazzing over Nickis performance of RIM, even though they cut out half of the 2nd verse but she did say a little bit of ERYYTHANG in that verse! lol Well Enjoy, Hope you like it. Muah to you all!*
It had been a week since Safaree left and Nicki wasn't any better than she was the day he left. She left the babies with her mom because she was in no condition to care for anyone. How could she when she couldn't take care of herself. She felt alone with out him, which pissed her off. After she lost Javon, she promised herself she would never get so wrapped up in a man. When he got killed she felt like a shell of a woman, no emotions, no cares. History was starting to repeat its self and she didn't know how to stop it. Nicki heard her front door open then close, she hopped up out of the bed and ran to the stairs. Looking over the railing her smile faded.
"Oh it's just you." she turned and walked back to her room and slid back under the covers.
"What do you mean 'It's just me.'? Is that anyway to greet your mother?" Mrs. Maraj walked into Nickis room. She had on her big sunglasses and her big purse, looking like the DIVA she was. Denim skinny jeans tucked into her knee length boots with a soft pink sweater on Mrs. Maraj looked like she was ready for a hot date. She sat her purse down and went over to the curtains and pushed them open.
"Maaa." Nicki yelled and got out the bed to close once her mom walked away. "Go home." she sat in her bed.
"Not until we talk Onika."
"Talk about WHAT? There is nothing to talk about." she flung the covers over her head and her mom snatched them off.
"Nothing to talk about, oh honey there is plenty to talk about." she put an emphasis on plenty. "Let's talk about the big one, I am raising your kids."
"What happened to 'Nicki when ever you need me to watch them just say the word.'? Well I'm saying the word." Nicki got up and went down to the bar.
"Where are you going?"
"Why?" she said over her shoulder as she went down the stairs.
Carol was not use to seeing this Nicki, this Nicki was only shown with her father or her friends, she never acted this way with her. Picking up her purse she headed after her.
"Really you're drinking at nine AM? Since when do you drink Jack Daniel?" she asked. Nicki just sat there drinking the warm brown liquor. "That was your fathers choice of drink before he went into one of his episodes." She said it as just a memory she had but Nicki took it as much more.
"What the fuck is this, Kick Nicki while she's down month? You think I'm like daddy too, do you Safaree have bash Nicki meetings to come up with hateful shit to say to me, DAMN."
"Watch your mouth Nicki."
"This is my damn house and I'll say what the hell I feel like saying. You come in here looking down your nose at me, when you let a man beat you and your children for years and excepted it. You're know better than me." her mother had had enough.
"Now you listen to me little girl, for as long as your ass is black you will never disrespect me in this house, my house or any other place we are at. I am YOUR mother and you will treat me a such. Now I don't know what happen to trigger this hateful little girl your becoming and I don't care but what I do know and care about is that you have three kids that need their mother. So get your act together little girl. And let it be a cold day in hell before you ever fix your mouth to yell at me or curse me again because I promise you it will be your last day, try me if you want."
Nicki sat there looking like that fifteen year old girl that got caught sneaking back in the house after Raymond Harris birthday bash. Her mother caught her as she was closing the window in the living room.
"Don't treat me like I'm some child." she said in a small voice.
"Well how am I supposed to treat you Onika? Like a woman? You're not acting like one so I'm going to treat you like the child you're showing me you are. Get it together if not for yourself do it for your children."
Mrs. Maraj was so mad at her daughter at this point, she came over with the intentions of trying to help but she saw that Nicki didn't want help. She put back on her sunglasses. Nicki was just as mad as her.
"I love you Nicki. I'm only telling you these things because of the fact that I love you." she turned and left.
Once she left the house Nicki let out a scream and threw her glass across the room and it shattered.
Safaree
Safaree sat in his hotel room again for the fifth day in a row. He hadn't went anywhere since he checked in. The only human contact he had had was when the room service person came and dropped off his food and left. He just sat around thinking of how him and Nicki had gotten to this point in their relationship. Safaree hadn't shaved so he had this caveman look going on, he did at least shower.
Safaree looked over at the clock and got up. He pulled up his laptop and logged into his skype. He called one of his contacts and Micaiah answered.
"What up big bro?"
"What up man?"
"Hold on let me go get Zaria she was getting changed." He ran off and came back with his niece and sat her in her car seat. "Presenting..." he had his announcer voice on. "the three amigos or amigo and two amiga's. Whatever here your kids." he shifted the computer towards the three. They sat there looking at the screen.
"Hows daddies babies?" they smiled at the sound of their fathers voice. This had become a regular thing for them in the past week. He would skype with them three times a day, this was his first of the day. "Are y'all being good for Nana and granddaddy?" Daria showed her gums. "What you been up to Dee? You been given them a hard time? You probably have." he smiled back at her. "E-man you taking care of your sisters?" Ethan just stared at the screen. "I get no love huh?" all he got in response was a spit bubble. "Z-Baby hows my princess? You been eating up everything?" He didn't know how she did it but she could put away two big bottles in one feeding. He sat there just staring at them and thinking how much they looked like their mother, beautiful. "Alright Micaiah I'll hit you up later." Just them Mrs. Maraj walked in.
"Micaiah let me speak with him."
"Okay. SB mama wants to talk to you." he turned the computer towards her then left the room.
"Hey mama."
"Hi Safaree."
"How have you been? I know the three of them can be a handful."
"Oh they are a joy." she looked over at them. "But I wanted to talk about Nicki, Safaree she's not doing well. When are you coming back to New York? She needs her best friend." he ran his hands over his face and sighed.
"I don't know Mrs. Carol. I need a little more time."
"Safaree she doesn't have a little more time. She is spiraling out of control quickly."
"I don't think I can stand to look at her."
"Well can you at least take her phone calls. She says she calls you but you always send her straight to voice mail."
"She leaves voice mails and doesn't seem like she wants to talk, it's more like she wants to pick a fight."
"Please just talk to her."
"For you I will talk to her. Next time she calls I'll pick up." which he new would be in a hour or so because she called at the same time everyday like clockwork.
"Alright that's all I wanted. How are you doing, you eating?"
"I'm okay, and yes I am eating."
"When you get back I'll cook you a good home cooked meal."
"I'm looking forward to it." she smiled.
"Well I'll let you go. You want to talk to the kids one last time?"
"No just give them a kiss for me."
"I will. Your gonna have to hang up this thing you know I don't know how to work these things."
"Okay."
"Oh and Safaree."
"Yes?"
"Shave."
"Will do." with that he hung up the call.
Safaree walked over to the window and looked below at the people all rushing somewhere. He wished he was with his kids at the moment. They brought so much joy to his life, he noticed he toned down a lot when they were around. Safarees phone went off he went to answer it.
"Hello."
"Nigga what's going on?" It was Vincent.
"Man life." he sat on his bed.
"Lauren called me ranting about how you and Nicki need to get y'all shit together and how if you didn't bring your black ass back from LA she would come out here and kick your ass herself. Which this was news to me because I had no clue you were even here." Safaree chuckled. "Last time we spoke you said you had changed your mind and wasn't coming."
"I didn't, I just didn't tell anyone else that. Like I said I couldn't go that far away from my family. And everyone would be here telling me what they think I should do. I don't need that I need to just get to the answer myself."
"I understand man. Lauren thinks Nicki is about to go off the deep end. She hasn't seen the kids since you left, hasn't even asked about them."
"Maybe I'm being over dramatic about the whole situation."
"From what Candi told me happened, I believe you did what anyone would have done. If she is addicted she needs to kick that shit. She can't be around my nieces and nephew hopped up on shit. Look get your mind right then go and see your children. I'll let Lauren and Candi know you are alright, I won't tell them you're still there. But call them they are worried."
"I will. I'll talk to you later." he hung up.
Safaree went to go bathe and get dressed he was going to go see his babies. They needed at least one of their parents around. An hour later Safaree was dressed and headed out the hotel room. When Safaree reached his car his phone rang, he heard the familiar tune, Nicki he thought. Taking a deep breath he answered.
"Hello."
"Wow I'm surprised you answered."
"What's up Nicki?"
"That's what I'm trying to figure out. Why'd you leave me Safaree? Huh?"
"Have you been drinking." he leaned against his car.
"That's not what I asked you SB. Why did you leave?" she raised her voice.
"You know why I left Nicki. I was sick of the arguing and bickering between us one day. Then you being lovey dovey with me the next. I can't take your mood swings. Oh and let's not forget that your addicted to pills."
"I'M NOT FUCKING ADDICT SAFAREE."
"That's what all addicts say. Look Nicki go get help, I heard you been drinking a lot these days."
"Safaree why are you treating me like this." she was in the middle of her bed on her knees.
"Like what?"
"Like you don't care." there was silence. "Remember the night before that day? You loved me, did you really stop that quickly?" she said sadly.
He still loved her. "Listen Nicki go get help and go see your kids."
"FUCK YOU SAFAREE. STOP PRETENDING YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT ME. AND THAT YOU DON'T WANT T BE WITH ME. IF YOU WANT ME TO GET HELP WHY DID YOU STAY AND HELP ME, YOU JUST PACKED YOUR BAGS AND TREATED ME LIKE I WAS SOME WHORE YOU HAD JUST MET THE NIGHT BEFORE. SCREWED ME THEN LEFT THE NEXT MORNING."
"YOU WILL NOT PUT THIS ON ME LIKE I DID SOMETHING WRONG, IT'S ALL ON YOU ONIKA. GROW UP AND TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR ACTIONS. WHEN I HAD IT IN MIND TO HELP YOU, YOU DIDN'T WANT TO GIVE ME THE PILLS. YOU ACTED LIKE A DAMN JUNKIE. SO YES YOU'RE RIGHT I LEFT. I DON'T WANT TO SEE MY BEST FRIEND KILL HER BODY AND EVENTUALLY HERSELF IF SHE DOESN'T SLOW DOWN. I TELL YOU ALL THE TIME TO TAKE TIME FOR YOURSELF BUT KNOW YOU DECIDE TO GET SOME DUMB ASS PILL INSTEAD. YOU DON'T EVER LISTEN TO ME, SO WHY SHOULD I THINK YOU WOULD LISTEN TO ME NOW." he was pacing back and forth behind his car.
"YOU COULD HAVE TRIED HARDER YOU BASTARD." he couldn't deal with her anymore so he just hung up the phone. Safaree got in his car and tried to calm down. He pulled off and headed for Mrs. Carols house.
--
"Zaria get that out your mouth." Mrs. Maraj took the bib off of her. Lauren came around the corner with Ethan.
"Aunties little man is so cute." she kissed his cheek.
"Thank you girls for helping out with them, you are my angels."
"Mama don't thank us, it's our pleasure." Candi said while feeding Daria.
"She's right. Nicki is our friend and she is going through something so it's only right we help until she gets better.
"Mom look who's here." Micaiah pulled Safaree by the hand into the room.
"Safaree what sight for sore eyes. Come give me a hug."
"Hey ma." he hugged her tight.
"Came to see your babies I see."
"Yes ma'am I couldn't stay away to long, I missed them." he went and took Ethan from Lauren. She rolled her eyes and walked out the room. "What's her problem?" he asked.
"You left, You said you would never leave them." Candi said meekly.
"It's not like I said I wasn't coming back. I wasn't that far." he explained.
"California is far SB!"
"I never left New York. I thought about but I couldn't go. I've been at the Trump." he felt a slap against the back of his head, he looked around for Nicki but realized it was Mrs. Carol. "What was that for?"
"You have been here this whole time and talked to me everyday and never said a thing."
"I'm sorry mama but I need to be by myself. And you know you would have came there and gave all types of wisdom and I wasn't ready for that, I wanted to be mad for awhile. Forgive me?"
"It fine, I understand. Just don't "leave" again."
"Promise." he kissed Ethan who was putting his daddies knuckle in his mouth. "You hungry?" he grabbed a bottle off the table and gave it to him. "I'm never leaving you guys again." he told to Ethan. Ethan pushed the bottle away with his small hands. "Well what do you want?" Safaree rubbed Ethans cheek, Ethan took his fathers finger into his tiny little hand and just held it, minutes later he drifted to sleep. Safaree went and put him in the crib Nickis mother had bought them for when they came over. "I'm going to go find Lauren.
"She is probably in the kitchen. There is a tub of chocolate ice cream in there." Mrs. Maraj said. Safaree took down the stairs and into the kitchen. Lauren was sitting there with a bowl of chocolate ice cream. He grabbed a spoon and sat next to her.
"You mad at me?" she didn't say anything. He put his spoon in her bowl.
"Move SB."
"Oh so you can talk. I thought you had went mute since I've been gone." he smiled she didn't.
"You left them. You know even if she wasn't trippin she still could never take car of them by herself."
"She had you guys and her mother." He looked down.
"That's not the point and you know it."
"She was being selfish so why couldn't I?" he said knowing he sounded childish.
"You have kids that's why dummy." she pushed his head.
"I hear you Lauren. From now on no more bullshit. I know what have to do."
"I hope so because if you pull that disappearing act again I will kick your ass myself." he laughed. "I'm not playing."
"I know, now can I have some of your ice cream?"
"No get your own." he snatched her bowl.
"Stop being stingy before I tell." he got a big spoon full.
"You irk my soul." she snatched her bowl back. He got up going back upstairs.
"Y'all friends again?" Candi asked.
"Yep.She shared her ice cream and everything."
"No she didn't you took it like you always do." Mrs. Carol said cleaning up the room. "Always did like messing with her." she said. Both him and Candi laughed. Mrs. Carol knew them all so well. "Have you talked to Nicki?" Both smiles faded. Both women looked at him, Zaria even looked his way.
"Yes."
"And."
"It went like I said it would. She didn't want to take responsibility for anything. Which lead to a shouting match then me hanging up the phone."
"She is so stubborn."
"Yeah that's your daughter, as stubborn as can be." Mrs. Carol laughed at the comment.
"Really mom you think that's funny?" Everyone turned and seen Nicki and Micaiah standing in the door way. Nicki looked from face to face with an scowl plastered across hers. "Y'all are so buddy buddy with him after he left me AND his kids?"
"Nicki what are you doing here?" Her mom asked.
"I need an invitation to come see my own mother? Did you ask him that when he got here? I'm sure you didn't, probably welcomed him with open arms." She looked over at Candi. "You don't even come over anymore but he comes and it's a party right?"
"It's not even like that Nic." Candi said.
"I don't want to hear it."
"Nicki I'll leave." Safaree said.
"Why this seems to be your family? I'm the one looking like an outsider."
Safaree grabbed his jacket and put it on ready to leave. He walked over giving all his kids kisses then pushed past her. Micaiah ran behind him.
"Are we skyping later so you can see the babies or are we not doing it anymore?"
"Just keep your laptop up alright." he said over his shoulder and left.
"Oh so he's been seeing them and no one told me?"
"Nicki your being petty. Now either spend time with your children or leave because I don't want a bunch of drama in my house."
"How bout I do one even better, pack all they stuff they are coming home with me." Mrs. Carol turned around.
"What do you mean taking them home? You are in no condition to take care of them, I can still smell liquor on your breath. Did you drive here drunk?"
"I'm not drunk, just give me my kids so I can take them home where they should be. That is what you told me when you made your little visit this morning, that I needed to be taking care of them? So let me." she went around the room snatching up their clothes.
"I said you need to get it together and take care of them. You haven't gotten it together yet and you will not take them out of this house until you do. Now get out until the daughter I raised surfaces."
" I bought this house for you and you are kicking me out? Fine, Candi give me Zaria."
"Candi don't you give her that baby." Candi sat there torn.
"Candi give her to me."
"Go and take her to the other room Candace."
She got up from her seat, "I'm sorry Nicki." She took Zaria out of the room.
"Now you need to get help for your drinking and pill problem." Nickis eyes widened.
"Who told you, Safaree? There he go running his mouth." she said folding her arms.
"He wasn't the one who told me."
"Then who?"
"It doesn't matter, but you better get help before its to late. Addictions are nothing to play with."
"I'm not addicted. I haven't taken a pill besides aspirin in a week."
"You can always relapse."
"See there you go having no faith in me."
"Nicki I have all the faith in world in you. But you are not making good choices baby, why are you drinking so much?" Nicki sat down.
"It takes away of the pain of him not being there anymore. He doesn't love me anymore, he doesn't want to help me, he just left."
"Nicki I know it hurts but you are thinking about yourself and not the three lives you are responsible for." Nicki looked towards the crib at a sleeping Ethan.
"I'm messing everyone's life up." she put her head in her hands she felt a headache coming on. "I'll see you later mom."
"Call me if you need anything." Nicki walked out of the door and downstairs. she headed towards the front door.
"Are you okay Nicki?" she turned around and saw Micaiah standing by the steps.
"I'm fine lambchop."
"Mommy doesn't seem to think you are. She cries at night over you. She prays more during the day than she normally does. And this is your first time seeing the babies in over a week."
"Don't worry lambchop, everything will be fine." she gave a half hearted smile.
"I hope so. I love you Nicki." he went back upstairs.
"I love you too Micaiah."
*You all's encouraging words in my DM's always make me smile. I appreciate all of you, you give me the drive to keep writing. Okay now on to the story. Do you think Nicki is going to be alright? Do you think her mom was right for the things she said? How did you feel about both of her convo's with her mom? What about the one with Safaree? Leave comments my beautiful darlings. Love you all! <3*
It had been a week since Safaree left and Nicki wasn't any better than she was the day he left. She left the babies with her mom because she was in no condition to care for anyone. How could she when she couldn't take care of herself. She felt alone with out him, which pissed her off. After she lost Javon, she promised herself she would never get so wrapped up in a man. When he got killed she felt like a shell of a woman, no emotions, no cares. History was starting to repeat its self and she didn't know how to stop it. Nicki heard her front door open then close, she hopped up out of the bed and ran to the stairs. Looking over the railing her smile faded.
"Oh it's just you." she turned and walked back to her room and slid back under the covers.
"What do you mean 'It's just me.'? Is that anyway to greet your mother?" Mrs. Maraj walked into Nickis room. She had on her big sunglasses and her big purse, looking like the DIVA she was. Denim skinny jeans tucked into her knee length boots with a soft pink sweater on Mrs. Maraj looked like she was ready for a hot date. She sat her purse down and went over to the curtains and pushed them open.
"Maaa." Nicki yelled and got out the bed to close once her mom walked away. "Go home." she sat in her bed.
"Not until we talk Onika."
"Talk about WHAT? There is nothing to talk about." she flung the covers over her head and her mom snatched them off.
"Nothing to talk about, oh honey there is plenty to talk about." she put an emphasis on plenty. "Let's talk about the big one, I am raising your kids."
"What happened to 'Nicki when ever you need me to watch them just say the word.'? Well I'm saying the word." Nicki got up and went down to the bar.
"Where are you going?"
"Why?" she said over her shoulder as she went down the stairs.
Carol was not use to seeing this Nicki, this Nicki was only shown with her father or her friends, she never acted this way with her. Picking up her purse she headed after her.
"Really you're drinking at nine AM? Since when do you drink Jack Daniel?" she asked. Nicki just sat there drinking the warm brown liquor. "That was your fathers choice of drink before he went into one of his episodes." She said it as just a memory she had but Nicki took it as much more.
"What the fuck is this, Kick Nicki while she's down month? You think I'm like daddy too, do you Safaree have bash Nicki meetings to come up with hateful shit to say to me, DAMN."
"Watch your mouth Nicki."
"This is my damn house and I'll say what the hell I feel like saying. You come in here looking down your nose at me, when you let a man beat you and your children for years and excepted it. You're know better than me." her mother had had enough.
"Now you listen to me little girl, for as long as your ass is black you will never disrespect me in this house, my house or any other place we are at. I am YOUR mother and you will treat me a such. Now I don't know what happen to trigger this hateful little girl your becoming and I don't care but what I do know and care about is that you have three kids that need their mother. So get your act together little girl. And let it be a cold day in hell before you ever fix your mouth to yell at me or curse me again because I promise you it will be your last day, try me if you want."
Nicki sat there looking like that fifteen year old girl that got caught sneaking back in the house after Raymond Harris birthday bash. Her mother caught her as she was closing the window in the living room.
"Don't treat me like I'm some child." she said in a small voice.
"Well how am I supposed to treat you Onika? Like a woman? You're not acting like one so I'm going to treat you like the child you're showing me you are. Get it together if not for yourself do it for your children."
Mrs. Maraj was so mad at her daughter at this point, she came over with the intentions of trying to help but she saw that Nicki didn't want help. She put back on her sunglasses. Nicki was just as mad as her.
"I love you Nicki. I'm only telling you these things because of the fact that I love you." she turned and left.
Once she left the house Nicki let out a scream and threw her glass across the room and it shattered.
Safaree
Safaree sat in his hotel room again for the fifth day in a row. He hadn't went anywhere since he checked in. The only human contact he had had was when the room service person came and dropped off his food and left. He just sat around thinking of how him and Nicki had gotten to this point in their relationship. Safaree hadn't shaved so he had this caveman look going on, he did at least shower.
Safaree looked over at the clock and got up. He pulled up his laptop and logged into his skype. He called one of his contacts and Micaiah answered.
"What up big bro?"
"What up man?"
"Hold on let me go get Zaria she was getting changed." He ran off and came back with his niece and sat her in her car seat. "Presenting..." he had his announcer voice on. "the three amigos or amigo and two amiga's. Whatever here your kids." he shifted the computer towards the three. They sat there looking at the screen.
"Hows daddies babies?" they smiled at the sound of their fathers voice. This had become a regular thing for them in the past week. He would skype with them three times a day, this was his first of the day. "Are y'all being good for Nana and granddaddy?" Daria showed her gums. "What you been up to Dee? You been given them a hard time? You probably have." he smiled back at her. "E-man you taking care of your sisters?" Ethan just stared at the screen. "I get no love huh?" all he got in response was a spit bubble. "Z-Baby hows my princess? You been eating up everything?" He didn't know how she did it but she could put away two big bottles in one feeding. He sat there just staring at them and thinking how much they looked like their mother, beautiful. "Alright Micaiah I'll hit you up later." Just them Mrs. Maraj walked in.
"Micaiah let me speak with him."
"Okay. SB mama wants to talk to you." he turned the computer towards her then left the room.
"Hey mama."
"Hi Safaree."
"How have you been? I know the three of them can be a handful."
"Oh they are a joy." she looked over at them. "But I wanted to talk about Nicki, Safaree she's not doing well. When are you coming back to New York? She needs her best friend." he ran his hands over his face and sighed.
"I don't know Mrs. Carol. I need a little more time."
"Safaree she doesn't have a little more time. She is spiraling out of control quickly."
"I don't think I can stand to look at her."
"Well can you at least take her phone calls. She says she calls you but you always send her straight to voice mail."
"She leaves voice mails and doesn't seem like she wants to talk, it's more like she wants to pick a fight."
"Please just talk to her."
"For you I will talk to her. Next time she calls I'll pick up." which he new would be in a hour or so because she called at the same time everyday like clockwork.
"Alright that's all I wanted. How are you doing, you eating?"
"I'm okay, and yes I am eating."
"When you get back I'll cook you a good home cooked meal."
"I'm looking forward to it." she smiled.
"Well I'll let you go. You want to talk to the kids one last time?"
"No just give them a kiss for me."
"I will. Your gonna have to hang up this thing you know I don't know how to work these things."
"Okay."
"Oh and Safaree."
"Yes?"
"Shave."
"Will do." with that he hung up the call.
Safaree walked over to the window and looked below at the people all rushing somewhere. He wished he was with his kids at the moment. They brought so much joy to his life, he noticed he toned down a lot when they were around. Safarees phone went off he went to answer it.
"Hello."
"Nigga what's going on?" It was Vincent.
"Man life." he sat on his bed.
"Lauren called me ranting about how you and Nicki need to get y'all shit together and how if you didn't bring your black ass back from LA she would come out here and kick your ass herself. Which this was news to me because I had no clue you were even here." Safaree chuckled. "Last time we spoke you said you had changed your mind and wasn't coming."
"I didn't, I just didn't tell anyone else that. Like I said I couldn't go that far away from my family. And everyone would be here telling me what they think I should do. I don't need that I need to just get to the answer myself."
"I understand man. Lauren thinks Nicki is about to go off the deep end. She hasn't seen the kids since you left, hasn't even asked about them."
"Maybe I'm being over dramatic about the whole situation."
"From what Candi told me happened, I believe you did what anyone would have done. If she is addicted she needs to kick that shit. She can't be around my nieces and nephew hopped up on shit. Look get your mind right then go and see your children. I'll let Lauren and Candi know you are alright, I won't tell them you're still there. But call them they are worried."
"I will. I'll talk to you later." he hung up.
Safaree went to go bathe and get dressed he was going to go see his babies. They needed at least one of their parents around. An hour later Safaree was dressed and headed out the hotel room. When Safaree reached his car his phone rang, he heard the familiar tune, Nicki he thought. Taking a deep breath he answered.
"Hello."
"Wow I'm surprised you answered."
"What's up Nicki?"
"That's what I'm trying to figure out. Why'd you leave me Safaree? Huh?"
"Have you been drinking." he leaned against his car.
"That's not what I asked you SB. Why did you leave?" she raised her voice.
"You know why I left Nicki. I was sick of the arguing and bickering between us one day. Then you being lovey dovey with me the next. I can't take your mood swings. Oh and let's not forget that your addicted to pills."
"I'M NOT FUCKING ADDICT SAFAREE."
"That's what all addicts say. Look Nicki go get help, I heard you been drinking a lot these days."
"Safaree why are you treating me like this." she was in the middle of her bed on her knees.
"Like what?"
"Like you don't care." there was silence. "Remember the night before that day? You loved me, did you really stop that quickly?" she said sadly.
He still loved her. "Listen Nicki go get help and go see your kids."
"FUCK YOU SAFAREE. STOP PRETENDING YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT ME. AND THAT YOU DON'T WANT T BE WITH ME. IF YOU WANT ME TO GET HELP WHY DID YOU STAY AND HELP ME, YOU JUST PACKED YOUR BAGS AND TREATED ME LIKE I WAS SOME WHORE YOU HAD JUST MET THE NIGHT BEFORE. SCREWED ME THEN LEFT THE NEXT MORNING."
"YOU WILL NOT PUT THIS ON ME LIKE I DID SOMETHING WRONG, IT'S ALL ON YOU ONIKA. GROW UP AND TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR ACTIONS. WHEN I HAD IT IN MIND TO HELP YOU, YOU DIDN'T WANT TO GIVE ME THE PILLS. YOU ACTED LIKE A DAMN JUNKIE. SO YES YOU'RE RIGHT I LEFT. I DON'T WANT TO SEE MY BEST FRIEND KILL HER BODY AND EVENTUALLY HERSELF IF SHE DOESN'T SLOW DOWN. I TELL YOU ALL THE TIME TO TAKE TIME FOR YOURSELF BUT KNOW YOU DECIDE TO GET SOME DUMB ASS PILL INSTEAD. YOU DON'T EVER LISTEN TO ME, SO WHY SHOULD I THINK YOU WOULD LISTEN TO ME NOW." he was pacing back and forth behind his car.
"YOU COULD HAVE TRIED HARDER YOU BASTARD." he couldn't deal with her anymore so he just hung up the phone. Safaree got in his car and tried to calm down. He pulled off and headed for Mrs. Carols house.
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"Zaria get that out your mouth." Mrs. Maraj took the bib off of her. Lauren came around the corner with Ethan.
"Aunties little man is so cute." she kissed his cheek.
"Thank you girls for helping out with them, you are my angels."
"Mama don't thank us, it's our pleasure." Candi said while feeding Daria.
"She's right. Nicki is our friend and she is going through something so it's only right we help until she gets better.
"Mom look who's here." Micaiah pulled Safaree by the hand into the room.
"Safaree what sight for sore eyes. Come give me a hug."
"Hey ma." he hugged her tight.
"Came to see your babies I see."
"Yes ma'am I couldn't stay away to long, I missed them." he went and took Ethan from Lauren. She rolled her eyes and walked out the room. "What's her problem?" he asked.
"You left, You said you would never leave them." Candi said meekly.
"It's not like I said I wasn't coming back. I wasn't that far." he explained.
"California is far SB!"
"I never left New York. I thought about but I couldn't go. I've been at the Trump." he felt a slap against the back of his head, he looked around for Nicki but realized it was Mrs. Carol. "What was that for?"
"You have been here this whole time and talked to me everyday and never said a thing."
"I'm sorry mama but I need to be by myself. And you know you would have came there and gave all types of wisdom and I wasn't ready for that, I wanted to be mad for awhile. Forgive me?"
"It fine, I understand. Just don't "leave" again."
"Promise." he kissed Ethan who was putting his daddies knuckle in his mouth. "You hungry?" he grabbed a bottle off the table and gave it to him. "I'm never leaving you guys again." he told to Ethan. Ethan pushed the bottle away with his small hands. "Well what do you want?" Safaree rubbed Ethans cheek, Ethan took his fathers finger into his tiny little hand and just held it, minutes later he drifted to sleep. Safaree went and put him in the crib Nickis mother had bought them for when they came over. "I'm going to go find Lauren.
"She is probably in the kitchen. There is a tub of chocolate ice cream in there." Mrs. Maraj said. Safaree took down the stairs and into the kitchen. Lauren was sitting there with a bowl of chocolate ice cream. He grabbed a spoon and sat next to her.
"You mad at me?" she didn't say anything. He put his spoon in her bowl.
"Move SB."
"Oh so you can talk. I thought you had went mute since I've been gone." he smiled she didn't.
"You left them. You know even if she wasn't trippin she still could never take car of them by herself."
"She had you guys and her mother." He looked down.
"That's not the point and you know it."
"She was being selfish so why couldn't I?" he said knowing he sounded childish.
"You have kids that's why dummy." she pushed his head.
"I hear you Lauren. From now on no more bullshit. I know what have to do."
"I hope so because if you pull that disappearing act again I will kick your ass myself." he laughed. "I'm not playing."
"I know, now can I have some of your ice cream?"
"No get your own." he snatched her bowl.
"Stop being stingy before I tell." he got a big spoon full.
"You irk my soul." she snatched her bowl back. He got up going back upstairs.
"Y'all friends again?" Candi asked.
"Yep.She shared her ice cream and everything."
"No she didn't you took it like you always do." Mrs. Carol said cleaning up the room. "Always did like messing with her." she said. Both him and Candi laughed. Mrs. Carol knew them all so well. "Have you talked to Nicki?" Both smiles faded. Both women looked at him, Zaria even looked his way.
"Yes."
"And."
"It went like I said it would. She didn't want to take responsibility for anything. Which lead to a shouting match then me hanging up the phone."
"She is so stubborn."
"Yeah that's your daughter, as stubborn as can be." Mrs. Carol laughed at the comment.
"Really mom you think that's funny?" Everyone turned and seen Nicki and Micaiah standing in the door way. Nicki looked from face to face with an scowl plastered across hers. "Y'all are so buddy buddy with him after he left me AND his kids?"
"Nicki what are you doing here?" Her mom asked.
"I need an invitation to come see my own mother? Did you ask him that when he got here? I'm sure you didn't, probably welcomed him with open arms." She looked over at Candi. "You don't even come over anymore but he comes and it's a party right?"
"It's not even like that Nic." Candi said.
"I don't want to hear it."
"Nicki I'll leave." Safaree said.
"Why this seems to be your family? I'm the one looking like an outsider."
Safaree grabbed his jacket and put it on ready to leave. He walked over giving all his kids kisses then pushed past her. Micaiah ran behind him.
"Are we skyping later so you can see the babies or are we not doing it anymore?"
"Just keep your laptop up alright." he said over his shoulder and left.
"Oh so he's been seeing them and no one told me?"
"Nicki your being petty. Now either spend time with your children or leave because I don't want a bunch of drama in my house."
"How bout I do one even better, pack all they stuff they are coming home with me." Mrs. Carol turned around.
"What do you mean taking them home? You are in no condition to take care of them, I can still smell liquor on your breath. Did you drive here drunk?"
"I'm not drunk, just give me my kids so I can take them home where they should be. That is what you told me when you made your little visit this morning, that I needed to be taking care of them? So let me." she went around the room snatching up their clothes.
"I said you need to get it together and take care of them. You haven't gotten it together yet and you will not take them out of this house until you do. Now get out until the daughter I raised surfaces."
" I bought this house for you and you are kicking me out? Fine, Candi give me Zaria."
"Candi don't you give her that baby." Candi sat there torn.
"Candi give her to me."
"Go and take her to the other room Candace."
She got up from her seat, "I'm sorry Nicki." She took Zaria out of the room.
"Now you need to get help for your drinking and pill problem." Nickis eyes widened.
"Who told you, Safaree? There he go running his mouth." she said folding her arms.
"He wasn't the one who told me."
"Then who?"
"It doesn't matter, but you better get help before its to late. Addictions are nothing to play with."
"I'm not addicted. I haven't taken a pill besides aspirin in a week."
"You can always relapse."
"See there you go having no faith in me."
"Nicki I have all the faith in world in you. But you are not making good choices baby, why are you drinking so much?" Nicki sat down.
"It takes away of the pain of him not being there anymore. He doesn't love me anymore, he doesn't want to help me, he just left."
"Nicki I know it hurts but you are thinking about yourself and not the three lives you are responsible for." Nicki looked towards the crib at a sleeping Ethan.
"I'm messing everyone's life up." she put her head in her hands she felt a headache coming on. "I'll see you later mom."
"Call me if you need anything." Nicki walked out of the door and downstairs. she headed towards the front door.
"Are you okay Nicki?" she turned around and saw Micaiah standing by the steps.
"I'm fine lambchop."
"Mommy doesn't seem to think you are. She cries at night over you. She prays more during the day than she normally does. And this is your first time seeing the babies in over a week."
"Don't worry lambchop, everything will be fine." she gave a half hearted smile.
"I hope so. I love you Nicki." he went back upstairs.
"I love you too Micaiah."
*You all's encouraging words in my DM's always make me smile. I appreciate all of you, you give me the drive to keep writing. Okay now on to the story. Do you think Nicki is going to be alright? Do you think her mom was right for the things she said? How did you feel about both of her convo's with her mom? What about the one with Safaree? Leave comments my beautiful darlings. Love you all! <3*
Saturday, December 31, 2011
When A Good Thing Goes Bad...
*So How fuckin cute was Nicki on the Dick Clark show? Her hair was poppington, fuck what ya heard. Hope you like this, *side eyes my Brainstorm partner* they know who they are! Any fuckin WHORE, Enjoy my beautiful darlings*
"What?" she said trying to play it off.
"Don't play dumb with me. I'm no tin the mood. Are you taking caffeine pills?" she looked at the floor. "ANSWER ME!"
"Yes." she said in a small voice. He clenched the paper in his hands.
"What the fuck Nicki?" he yelled.
"Don't yell at me Safaree." she held herself.
"What am I supposed to do Nicki, act like I'm okay with this shit?" he stood up. "You are around here popping these fucking pills like they are fucking tic tacs. Yesterday I watched you take eight of those damn pills."
"They help keep my energy up. I'm around here trying to get everything together for the CD, the tour, the babies, I couldn't do it all on my own." she defended herself.
"How bout taking your black ass to sleep and resting." he was fuming mad. She had never seen him this way. He was literally shaking he was so mad. "I can't believe you Onika."
"I'm sorry." she whined.
"'I'm sorry.' doesn't cut it this time Nicki. You have been lying to me for months about this, MONTHS Nicki. I have been asking you and asking you Nicki if you needed a break, and you have constantly been lying. What kind of relationship is this?"
"What was I supposed to do? I needed to get shit done Safaree."
"Slow the fuck down, that's what. Nobody was demanding you jump back into work, YOU decided that. Nobody asked for you to do a tour, YOU decided that. YOU agreed to do all the promo you're doing. You try to be superwoman and your not. You have a breaking point."
"I know I decided to to it all but I did it for my fans."
"The same fans that were telling you they didn't need album this quick. They could have lived without for awhile, while you got yourself together. But know you decide to take drugs instead."
Safaree was a mixture of a lot of things. He was mad, pissed, he felt betrayed, and scared. Scared that the thought of what if. What if he hadn't paid the pill any mind? Would she have over dosed on them? What if the babies had gotten ahold of it some how? The babies.
"Your still breast feeding Nicki. Did you think about what that could do to them? That shit makes your heart race. Just imagine what theirs are doing, they already have a fast heartbeat." he had reached the point of livid. "You could have harmed one of my kids Nicki."
"Our kids."
"Don't give me that shit. You are not acting like a parent these days. I can't look at you right now." Safaree went to the closet and threw on some sweats, a t-shirt, his Nikes, and a fitted.
"Where are you going Safaree?" she walked into the closet. He said nothing, just brushed passed her. NIcki grabbed his arm.
"DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME NICKI!" he yanked his arm away.
"DON'T LEAVE."
"ARE YOU AN ADDICT?" he turned towards her.
"What?" she asked looking at him.
"Are you addicted to the pills?"
"No Safaree."
"Don't lie to me."
"I'm not."
"Are you sure? You know being a druggy does run in your family. I pray none of my kids turn out like you two." he said coldly. She looked at him with hurt in her eyes, for a second he felt a twinge of guilt but quickly dismissed it.
"Fuck you Safaree. What kind of boyfriend are you to say some shit like that?"
"What kind of girlfriend are you to hide some shit like this? Give me the pills."
"I'm not giving you a muthafucking thing."
He went back into her closet and went to her purse rack. He picked up the first one and dumped its contents on the floor, he didn't find the small case she held them in. He picked up another and did the same as with the first.
"What the fuck are you doing?" she pushed him and punched him in the back.
"I said don't fucking touch me."
"Get out of my house."
"Give me the damn pills you fucking addict."
"I'm not addicted. Get out!" she shouted.
"WHERE ARE THEY?" He pulled the complete rack down. She turned and walked out of the closet. He thought. "He black purse." he searched the floor for it but it wasn't there. "Downstairs." He made his way back into the room but Nicki wasn't in there. "Shit." He rushed towards the stairs and saw Nicki heading down them. She turned and seen him coming her way, she picked up speed. He skipped four steps at a time and met her at the bottom. They raced to get to the black Chanel bag on the table next to the door.
Nicki reached it first grabbing it holding the bag close to her body. Safaree reached around her and gripped the bottom of it trying to rip it from her hands.
"GIVE IT TO ME."
"NO! JUST LEAVE SAFAREE."
"NOT UNTIL YOU GIVE ME THE PILLS."
Safaree managed to get the purse fro her but the contents spilled all over the floor. Both of there eyes searched for the small container. Safaree spotted it. It had slid next to the flower pot, he took after it. Nicki being small, once she saw it, crawled threw his legs and retrieved it before he did. Safaree grabbed her hand and pulled it in the air.
"I'm not going to let you hurt your body." he strained to pry it from her hands.
"I'm a druggy remember, let me do what druggy's do." That comment had really hurt her when he said it.. He snatched it away from her and walked over to the sink. "SAFAREE NO!" He dumped them down the drain and turned the hot water on. Walking back out to where she was he threw the small container at her.
"WHAT KIND OF MOTHER ARE YOU?" she seen the hatred in his eyes and began crying. "I can't stay here." he went upstairs leaving her there. He packed a couple of duffle bags. He came down stairs and she was still crying.
"Safaree don't leave." She was on her knees.
"You did this to us." he said disgust in his voice. "The person I'm looking at is not my best friend I met years back. She is no the girl I fell in love with."
"I can fix us Safaree please don't go. Our relationship is salvageable." she said through her tears.
"Nicki we haven't truly been happy for a good two months now. The petty ass arguments, arguing about the kids. Now this takes the cake."
Safaree had never understood how people got addicted to things, especially drugs. He would have thought Nicki was the last person to ever get that way, but now he didn't put it past anyone. He didn't condone abusing drugs, and he wouldn't tolerate her doing it.
"I'm going to see my kids, I suggest you don't come by why I'm at your mothers." he walked past her and out the door slamming it behind him.
Nickis sobs were no longer controllable but she needed someone. She managed to get to the cordless phone and dial Laurens number.
"Hello my gorgeous best friend."
"LAUREN HE LEFT ME." she managed to get out.
"Nicki what's wrong, who left?"
"SAFAREE!" she broke down.
"I'll be there in 20 minutes with Candi. Try to calm yourself." she hung up the phone. Nicki sat on the floor of the kitchen.
Mrs. Carols House
Safaree pulled up to Nickis mothers house and hurriedly got out the car. He ran up the steps and knocked on the door. He could hear Ethan crying at the top of his lungs, mama Maraj opened the door trying to calm Ethan.
"Hey Safaree."
"Hey Mama." he took Ethan from her. "Come here man, what's the matter?"
"I've changed him, bathed him, tried to feed him, but he has been crying hysterically for the pass 20 minutes. I can't seem to calm him."
"Daddies little man needs to calm his nerves." Safaree had so many things going through his mind. "Was it because he had gotten hooked on all the caffeine in Nickis milk?" was the number one question in his mind. Every time he thought about her he felt like kicking something.
Mrs. Maraj stood staring at Safarees face. He was scowling really hard, she knew it had to do something with Nicki. He only got this mad when it had to do with her.
"What happen between you and Nicki?" she said sitting down in her husbands lazy boy.
"What makes you think we got into it?"
"Son i've known you for years, Nicki is the only thing that puts that expression on your face. So are you gonna tell me?"
"Honestly this is something Nicki needs to tell you herself. I don't want to speak on her personal matters." he kissed Ethan on his cheek. He had calmed down, hearing his fathers voice was soothing to him. "Where are the girls?"
"Robert and Caiah are upstairs with them. That Zaria is something else, she is a girl of a million faces, just like her mama." Safaree stood.
"I'm going to go up and see them."
"You want me to take him?"
"No, i'll take him with me." he climbed the stairs, he heard one of the girls laughter come from Caiahs room. "Hey you two."
"Hey Safaree." Mr. Robert said.
"What up coon?"
"Hey Safaree." Micaiah was to busy playing with Daria to turn around, they were playing peek-a-boo. Zaria was grabbing her granddaddies hair.
"How are my two favorite girls doing? Have they been giving you a hard time?"
"Nope. I don't think they like quietness though." Micaiah said.
"Why you say that?"
"Well every time it gets...what's the word, still in the house, all of them begin to cry. But when it's chaotic, like when Ethan was crying these to were perfectly calm. When mommy and daddy had a disagreement earlier they all just sat there watching."
Mr. Maraj shifted in his seat at the last comment, Micaiah saw his discomfort.
"Sorry daddy."
Safaree was impressed with Micaiahs observation, Nicki and him noticed this a week ago. There was a really bad thunderstorm and they had prepared for a restless night but all three had slept peacefully through the night.
"Well all they went through before they got here, they probably think chaos is normal." Safaree said. "Have they been acting hyper or jittery?"
"Safaree they are babies, all of them are jittery. And let's not forget they are Onikas kids, they are always trying to see what your doing. That one you have has been trying to hold his head up and he is only month and some days. Nicki was doing things most babies weren't doing until they were older."
"Okay well I was just checking."
"Is there a reason?" After what she had done he should lay all her shit on the table but he still felt the need to protect her.
"Naw, just been reading books. You know doctors have you looking for everything these days."
Micaiah was looking at Daria strange but she was also looking at him strange. Micaiah finally figured out why.
"She needs to be changed." he handed her to Safaree and took Ethan.
"Oh you can love on her why she clean but as soon as she poops you can't be bothered. Come on boo boo daddy will change you." he went downstairs to get the diaper bag. While changing her she made little spit bubbles.
Being around his kids seemed to calm him because lord knows he was on the verge of snapping earlier. They needed sometime apart, well at least he did. If he stayed it wouldn't be good for any of them. He hated to leave to leave his kids but it was in their best interest he did. He was coming back, he would never allow anything to come between him and them. He snapped Darias onsie back together. He tossed the diaper in the waste bucket in the corner, he wiped his hands with a wipe then rubbed some hand sanitizer on them before picking her back up. Went back to Micaiahs room.
"Hey Ciaiah can I borrow your room for a minute."
"Sure you want me to take one of them?"
"Naw I got them."
"Okay." he paused his game and left the room. Safaree laid all three next to each other on Micaiahs bed.
"Alright you guys listen to daddy. I'm going to go back to L.A. for awhile, not for too long. Two weeks maximum. I just need to get my head together. Me and mommy love you, but we are going through something." Safaree knew they didn't understand but it mad him feel better. "I will call you everyday and every night, okay?" he put his finger in Zarias hand. He felt a tear slid down his face. It was hard for him to even think about being away from his children, but to actually do it was even tougher. Zaria smiled at him kicking her feet. "I love you guys so much." He kissed each one on the cheek and stood to leave. His plane left in a hour. "Mama." he shouted.
Mrs. Maraj walked into the room a few minutes later.
"I'm getting ready to go."
"Are you coming bye tomorrow?"
"No ma'ma. I'm going back to L.A. for awhile."
"Business?"
"No personal."
"Whatever it is Safaree don't let it keep you from what matters most."
"Yes ma'ma." he kissed her cheek then left out the room. When he left Zaria started crying.
"It's okay, daddy won't be gone for to long." Mrs. Maraj said.
It took everything in him not to turn around and go back but he knew he had to get himself right. In a matter of hours he had so much anger built towards Nicki.
Nickis House
When Lauren and Candi walked into Nickis house they heard the sound of something crashing against the wall. They carefully walked around the corner. Nicki had a picture of her and Safaree in her hand she hurled it toward the wall, the glass in the picture frame shattered everywhere.
"Nicki what are you doing?" Candi shouted
Candi looked around the living room at the damage she had done. Nicki had successfully broken every picture of her and Safaree, broken anything glass she owned, except for the table her mother had bought her. She had kicked over Safarees lazy boy and it looked like stabbed it with a butcher knife repeatedly.
"Nicki what happened?"
"He left, and blamed everything on me."
"He left why, and blamed what on you?" Lauren asked.
"He said I was a bad mother." Lauren noticed Nickis words kind of slurred. She looked towards the mantle and seen a Grey Goose bottle half empty. She didn't know if Nicki emptied it but then again it doesn't take much to get Nicki faded. "He said we haven't been happy and some otha shit."
"Nicki well what triggered the argument?" Lauren asked. Nicki walked over to the mantel and grabbed the bottle and took a long swig from it. She twisted her face as the cool liquid rushed down her throat and burned her chest.
"He found out I was taking caffeine pills." she took another drink.
"Taking them for what? Wait those pills you been calling vitamins? Nicki you were taking them like six times a day. I knew it wasn't no vitamin you had to take that many times in a day." Candi said.
"What in the hell were you thinking Nicki?" Lauren walked over and snatched the bottle away from her lips and out her hand.
"According to him I wasn't thinking."
"What if you would have over dosed Nicki? Did you think about how the babies would be affected if they lost you? How your fans would feel and go through?"
"I gotta pee. Be back." She took off up the stairs.
"DAMN IT LAUREN I ASKED YOU HERE TO COMFORT ME NOT LECTURE ME!" Nicki yelled throwing her body onto the couch. She buried her face in her hands.
"You couldn't have possibly thought that. When you fuck up I tell you, and you have royally fucked up this time. Lauren sat next to her. "I don't blame him for leaving." Nickis head popped up.
"Just because I fucked up doesn't give him the right to say the fucked up shit he said. I am NOTHING like my father."
"He said that?" Laurens face softened, she knew that was a sore spot for Nicki.
"He called me a druggy. And said he prayed our kids didn't turn out like me."
"Nicki you didn't deserve that. I'm sure he just said it out of anger, he doesn't think that of you.
"Let's face it i have just destroyed the one great relationship I have ever had." Nicki sat and thought. "I fucked up Lauren." Nicki collapsed in her arms.
"It's okay Nicki." she healed her friend close and let her release.
*Are things going to get better? How do you feel about Safaree leaving? do you think it was a wise decision to go to LA? *Martha Voice* Oh dear, their in a bit of a pickle. Okay my darlings comment below.* HAPPY NEW YEARS BARBS!!!! MUAH
"What?" she said trying to play it off.
"Don't play dumb with me. I'm no tin the mood. Are you taking caffeine pills?" she looked at the floor. "ANSWER ME!"
"Yes." she said in a small voice. He clenched the paper in his hands.
"What the fuck Nicki?" he yelled.
"Don't yell at me Safaree." she held herself.
"What am I supposed to do Nicki, act like I'm okay with this shit?" he stood up. "You are around here popping these fucking pills like they are fucking tic tacs. Yesterday I watched you take eight of those damn pills."
"They help keep my energy up. I'm around here trying to get everything together for the CD, the tour, the babies, I couldn't do it all on my own." she defended herself.
"How bout taking your black ass to sleep and resting." he was fuming mad. She had never seen him this way. He was literally shaking he was so mad. "I can't believe you Onika."
"I'm sorry." she whined.
"'I'm sorry.' doesn't cut it this time Nicki. You have been lying to me for months about this, MONTHS Nicki. I have been asking you and asking you Nicki if you needed a break, and you have constantly been lying. What kind of relationship is this?"
"What was I supposed to do? I needed to get shit done Safaree."
"Slow the fuck down, that's what. Nobody was demanding you jump back into work, YOU decided that. Nobody asked for you to do a tour, YOU decided that. YOU agreed to do all the promo you're doing. You try to be superwoman and your not. You have a breaking point."
"I know I decided to to it all but I did it for my fans."
"The same fans that were telling you they didn't need album this quick. They could have lived without for awhile, while you got yourself together. But know you decide to take drugs instead."
Safaree was a mixture of a lot of things. He was mad, pissed, he felt betrayed, and scared. Scared that the thought of what if. What if he hadn't paid the pill any mind? Would she have over dosed on them? What if the babies had gotten ahold of it some how? The babies.
"Your still breast feeding Nicki. Did you think about what that could do to them? That shit makes your heart race. Just imagine what theirs are doing, they already have a fast heartbeat." he had reached the point of livid. "You could have harmed one of my kids Nicki."
"Our kids."
"Don't give me that shit. You are not acting like a parent these days. I can't look at you right now." Safaree went to the closet and threw on some sweats, a t-shirt, his Nikes, and a fitted.
"Where are you going Safaree?" she walked into the closet. He said nothing, just brushed passed her. NIcki grabbed his arm.
"DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME NICKI!" he yanked his arm away.
"DON'T LEAVE."
"ARE YOU AN ADDICT?" he turned towards her.
"What?" she asked looking at him.
"Are you addicted to the pills?"
"No Safaree."
"Don't lie to me."
"I'm not."
"Are you sure? You know being a druggy does run in your family. I pray none of my kids turn out like you two." he said coldly. She looked at him with hurt in her eyes, for a second he felt a twinge of guilt but quickly dismissed it.
"Fuck you Safaree. What kind of boyfriend are you to say some shit like that?"
"What kind of girlfriend are you to hide some shit like this? Give me the pills."
"I'm not giving you a muthafucking thing."
He went back into her closet and went to her purse rack. He picked up the first one and dumped its contents on the floor, he didn't find the small case she held them in. He picked up another and did the same as with the first.
"What the fuck are you doing?" she pushed him and punched him in the back.
"I said don't fucking touch me."
"Get out of my house."
"Give me the damn pills you fucking addict."
"I'm not addicted. Get out!" she shouted.
"WHERE ARE THEY?" He pulled the complete rack down. She turned and walked out of the closet. He thought. "He black purse." he searched the floor for it but it wasn't there. "Downstairs." He made his way back into the room but Nicki wasn't in there. "Shit." He rushed towards the stairs and saw Nicki heading down them. She turned and seen him coming her way, she picked up speed. He skipped four steps at a time and met her at the bottom. They raced to get to the black Chanel bag on the table next to the door.
Nicki reached it first grabbing it holding the bag close to her body. Safaree reached around her and gripped the bottom of it trying to rip it from her hands.
"GIVE IT TO ME."
"NO! JUST LEAVE SAFAREE."
"NOT UNTIL YOU GIVE ME THE PILLS."
Safaree managed to get the purse fro her but the contents spilled all over the floor. Both of there eyes searched for the small container. Safaree spotted it. It had slid next to the flower pot, he took after it. Nicki being small, once she saw it, crawled threw his legs and retrieved it before he did. Safaree grabbed her hand and pulled it in the air.
"I'm not going to let you hurt your body." he strained to pry it from her hands.
"I'm a druggy remember, let me do what druggy's do." That comment had really hurt her when he said it.. He snatched it away from her and walked over to the sink. "SAFAREE NO!" He dumped them down the drain and turned the hot water on. Walking back out to where she was he threw the small container at her.
"WHAT KIND OF MOTHER ARE YOU?" she seen the hatred in his eyes and began crying. "I can't stay here." he went upstairs leaving her there. He packed a couple of duffle bags. He came down stairs and she was still crying.
"Safaree don't leave." She was on her knees.
"You did this to us." he said disgust in his voice. "The person I'm looking at is not my best friend I met years back. She is no the girl I fell in love with."
"I can fix us Safaree please don't go. Our relationship is salvageable." she said through her tears.
"Nicki we haven't truly been happy for a good two months now. The petty ass arguments, arguing about the kids. Now this takes the cake."
Safaree had never understood how people got addicted to things, especially drugs. He would have thought Nicki was the last person to ever get that way, but now he didn't put it past anyone. He didn't condone abusing drugs, and he wouldn't tolerate her doing it.
"I'm going to see my kids, I suggest you don't come by why I'm at your mothers." he walked past her and out the door slamming it behind him.
Nickis sobs were no longer controllable but she needed someone. She managed to get to the cordless phone and dial Laurens number.
"Hello my gorgeous best friend."
"LAUREN HE LEFT ME." she managed to get out.
"Nicki what's wrong, who left?"
"SAFAREE!" she broke down.
"I'll be there in 20 minutes with Candi. Try to calm yourself." she hung up the phone. Nicki sat on the floor of the kitchen.
Mrs. Carols House
Safaree pulled up to Nickis mothers house and hurriedly got out the car. He ran up the steps and knocked on the door. He could hear Ethan crying at the top of his lungs, mama Maraj opened the door trying to calm Ethan.
"Hey Safaree."
"Hey Mama." he took Ethan from her. "Come here man, what's the matter?"
"I've changed him, bathed him, tried to feed him, but he has been crying hysterically for the pass 20 minutes. I can't seem to calm him."
"Daddies little man needs to calm his nerves." Safaree had so many things going through his mind. "Was it because he had gotten hooked on all the caffeine in Nickis milk?" was the number one question in his mind. Every time he thought about her he felt like kicking something.
Mrs. Maraj stood staring at Safarees face. He was scowling really hard, she knew it had to do something with Nicki. He only got this mad when it had to do with her.
"What happen between you and Nicki?" she said sitting down in her husbands lazy boy.
"What makes you think we got into it?"
"Son i've known you for years, Nicki is the only thing that puts that expression on your face. So are you gonna tell me?"
"Honestly this is something Nicki needs to tell you herself. I don't want to speak on her personal matters." he kissed Ethan on his cheek. He had calmed down, hearing his fathers voice was soothing to him. "Where are the girls?"
"Robert and Caiah are upstairs with them. That Zaria is something else, she is a girl of a million faces, just like her mama." Safaree stood.
"I'm going to go up and see them."
"You want me to take him?"
"No, i'll take him with me." he climbed the stairs, he heard one of the girls laughter come from Caiahs room. "Hey you two."
"Hey Safaree." Mr. Robert said.
"What up coon?"
"Hey Safaree." Micaiah was to busy playing with Daria to turn around, they were playing peek-a-boo. Zaria was grabbing her granddaddies hair.
"How are my two favorite girls doing? Have they been giving you a hard time?"
"Nope. I don't think they like quietness though." Micaiah said.
"Why you say that?"
"Well every time it gets...what's the word, still in the house, all of them begin to cry. But when it's chaotic, like when Ethan was crying these to were perfectly calm. When mommy and daddy had a disagreement earlier they all just sat there watching."
Mr. Maraj shifted in his seat at the last comment, Micaiah saw his discomfort.
"Sorry daddy."
Safaree was impressed with Micaiahs observation, Nicki and him noticed this a week ago. There was a really bad thunderstorm and they had prepared for a restless night but all three had slept peacefully through the night.
"Well all they went through before they got here, they probably think chaos is normal." Safaree said. "Have they been acting hyper or jittery?"
"Safaree they are babies, all of them are jittery. And let's not forget they are Onikas kids, they are always trying to see what your doing. That one you have has been trying to hold his head up and he is only month and some days. Nicki was doing things most babies weren't doing until they were older."
"Okay well I was just checking."
"Is there a reason?" After what she had done he should lay all her shit on the table but he still felt the need to protect her.
"Naw, just been reading books. You know doctors have you looking for everything these days."
Micaiah was looking at Daria strange but she was also looking at him strange. Micaiah finally figured out why.
"She needs to be changed." he handed her to Safaree and took Ethan.
"Oh you can love on her why she clean but as soon as she poops you can't be bothered. Come on boo boo daddy will change you." he went downstairs to get the diaper bag. While changing her she made little spit bubbles.
Being around his kids seemed to calm him because lord knows he was on the verge of snapping earlier. They needed sometime apart, well at least he did. If he stayed it wouldn't be good for any of them. He hated to leave to leave his kids but it was in their best interest he did. He was coming back, he would never allow anything to come between him and them. He snapped Darias onsie back together. He tossed the diaper in the waste bucket in the corner, he wiped his hands with a wipe then rubbed some hand sanitizer on them before picking her back up. Went back to Micaiahs room.
"Hey Ciaiah can I borrow your room for a minute."
"Sure you want me to take one of them?"
"Naw I got them."
"Okay." he paused his game and left the room. Safaree laid all three next to each other on Micaiahs bed.
"Alright you guys listen to daddy. I'm going to go back to L.A. for awhile, not for too long. Two weeks maximum. I just need to get my head together. Me and mommy love you, but we are going through something." Safaree knew they didn't understand but it mad him feel better. "I will call you everyday and every night, okay?" he put his finger in Zarias hand. He felt a tear slid down his face. It was hard for him to even think about being away from his children, but to actually do it was even tougher. Zaria smiled at him kicking her feet. "I love you guys so much." He kissed each one on the cheek and stood to leave. His plane left in a hour. "Mama." he shouted.
Mrs. Maraj walked into the room a few minutes later.
"I'm getting ready to go."
"Are you coming bye tomorrow?"
"No ma'ma. I'm going back to L.A. for awhile."
"Business?"
"No personal."
"Whatever it is Safaree don't let it keep you from what matters most."
"Yes ma'ma." he kissed her cheek then left out the room. When he left Zaria started crying.
"It's okay, daddy won't be gone for to long." Mrs. Maraj said.
It took everything in him not to turn around and go back but he knew he had to get himself right. In a matter of hours he had so much anger built towards Nicki.
Nickis House
When Lauren and Candi walked into Nickis house they heard the sound of something crashing against the wall. They carefully walked around the corner. Nicki had a picture of her and Safaree in her hand she hurled it toward the wall, the glass in the picture frame shattered everywhere.
"Nicki what are you doing?" Candi shouted
Candi looked around the living room at the damage she had done. Nicki had successfully broken every picture of her and Safaree, broken anything glass she owned, except for the table her mother had bought her. She had kicked over Safarees lazy boy and it looked like stabbed it with a butcher knife repeatedly.
"Nicki what happened?"
"He left, and blamed everything on me."
"He left why, and blamed what on you?" Lauren asked.
"He said I was a bad mother." Lauren noticed Nickis words kind of slurred. She looked towards the mantle and seen a Grey Goose bottle half empty. She didn't know if Nicki emptied it but then again it doesn't take much to get Nicki faded. "He said we haven't been happy and some otha shit."
"Nicki well what triggered the argument?" Lauren asked. Nicki walked over to the mantel and grabbed the bottle and took a long swig from it. She twisted her face as the cool liquid rushed down her throat and burned her chest.
"He found out I was taking caffeine pills." she took another drink.
"Taking them for what? Wait those pills you been calling vitamins? Nicki you were taking them like six times a day. I knew it wasn't no vitamin you had to take that many times in a day." Candi said.
"What in the hell were you thinking Nicki?" Lauren walked over and snatched the bottle away from her lips and out her hand.
"According to him I wasn't thinking."
"What if you would have over dosed Nicki? Did you think about how the babies would be affected if they lost you? How your fans would feel and go through?"
"I gotta pee. Be back." She took off up the stairs.
"DAMN IT LAUREN I ASKED YOU HERE TO COMFORT ME NOT LECTURE ME!" Nicki yelled throwing her body onto the couch. She buried her face in her hands.
"You couldn't have possibly thought that. When you fuck up I tell you, and you have royally fucked up this time. Lauren sat next to her. "I don't blame him for leaving." Nickis head popped up.
"Just because I fucked up doesn't give him the right to say the fucked up shit he said. I am NOTHING like my father."
"He said that?" Laurens face softened, she knew that was a sore spot for Nicki.
"He called me a druggy. And said he prayed our kids didn't turn out like me."
"Nicki you didn't deserve that. I'm sure he just said it out of anger, he doesn't think that of you.
"Let's face it i have just destroyed the one great relationship I have ever had." Nicki sat and thought. "I fucked up Lauren." Nicki collapsed in her arms.
"It's okay Nicki." she healed her friend close and let her release.
*Are things going to get better? How do you feel about Safaree leaving? do you think it was a wise decision to go to LA? *Martha Voice* Oh dear, their in a bit of a pickle. Okay my darlings comment below.* HAPPY NEW YEARS BARBS!!!! MUAH
Late Night/Early Morning...
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"Nicki, over here."
"No Nicki this way."
"HB, HB." she turned to see a couple of familiar faces.
"Hi Barbs."
"Nicki we have to move inside now." she gave him her death glare. "It's getting to hectic out here, i need to be able to protect you." Big John her new bodyguard explained.
"Fine. Barbs I will see you inside. Its Barbie Bitchhhhhh." she made a crazy face then went inside the establishment.
The Barbs
Do you think she will remember us.. I mean I know she noticed us but will she KNOW us?" Jessie asked
"I hope so. She said she only had memory loss from a month or two before the incident." Shonda leaned on Jessie. They had been in line for hours waiting and of course Nicki was late.
Safaree came out out of the venue 30 minutes later because he was bored.
"Where my coons at?" That's all team Minaj needed to hear, they went crazy. It was not only Team Minaj NY but ATL, Michigan, Chicago, New Orleans, and D.C. They were 40 something deep. "Damn y'all wasn't playin this time around."
"You thought this was fuh play play my nig?" he looked over at Candiqueen.
"You forever got something to say." he laughed. "I need to take a picture and show her, she is not going to believe this." he took out his iPhone and snapped a picture. "I'll see y'all inside."
Safaree went back inside showing his laminate to security. He went to the back of Best Buy to show Nicki.
"Yo Nicki I got something to show you." Safaree said still looking at the picture.
"Just go, I don't want you here." Nicki turned to leave.
"Nicki just listen please." he grabbed her arm.
Safarees head snapped up at the sound of a familiar voice. Drake.
"Let go of me Drake." she twisted her arm.
"If you don't get you bitch ass hands off of her." Safaree ran up and was now chest to chest with Drake.
"I just wanted to talk to her."
"I don't give a fuck, what you wanted to do. If you ever touch her again i will put your ass six feet under."
"Is that a threat?"
"No bitch it's a promise. Now leave here and don't ever let me catch you anywhere near her again."
"Nicki we'll talk later." Drake walked away with his security behind him.
"I would like to see you try." Safaree yelled. He turned around to Nicki. "Did he hurt you?"
"No." she was holding her wrist where Drake had grabbed her.
"Let me see." she released her wrist for him to check it out. It was red but no bruising. "It's okay. What happen? How did he get to you?"
"I don't know. I had to use the bathroom but Big John was being prepped for later on so I told him I would go by myself. When I came out of the bathroom and started walking back he popped out of nowhere on some stalker, Micheal Myers type shit." she went from scared to mad. "Like who does he think he is, his ass should be locked up somewhere." she looked in the direction he went but he was no longer there anymore.
"You should have put him away when you had the chance." he clenched his jaw.
"What? When did anyone come to take my statement? They were supposed to come after I had the babies." he calmed down a bit and rubbed his face.
"They did Nicki, you don't remember. When they came you said he didn't have any involvement." she looked lost. "It's okay, we'll just get you more security. I shouldn't have left you." They began walking back towards the table she would be sitting at. "Big John let me holla at you real quick." Nicki saw the anger in his eyes.
"Safaree calm down please." she placed her hand on his chest.
"I'm just gone talk to him." he said kissing her forehead. He walked to a corner to talk. Her eyes stayer glued to them. She saw Safaree pointing her direction and got real close to his face. They both walked back to Nickis side.
"Sorry for not being there." he said then put on his shades and stepped back.
"It's okay." She sat down at the table her heels where killing her feet. "What did you have to show me?"
"Huh? Oh yeah look." he pulled his phone back out and showed her the picture. "They came from everywhere Nicki." she looked over the picture.
"Is that RBD? Oh lawd let me get ready for this child." She pointed to another girl. "She's from ATL I know but I can't remember her name. Can't wait to see them all again. You know what you should do, have them all pushed to a corner somewhere until the last person comes through so I can have more time with them."
"I'll see what I can do."
"Alright Nicki they are about to open the doors. Here is your basket full of Sharpies in different colors. They are going to put all the disabled people in front so they don't have to wait." Nicki shook her head in agreement to what Martin was saying. Nicki fumbled around in her purse looking for her pill box, once she found it she took a pill and sipped her water. Safaree wanted to know what the hell those pills where, so he had taken one out of her box and sent it to a friend that worked in a pharmacy. She should have it back to him by tomorrow.
"Okay I'm ready." she pulled out her silver sharpie out of the basket.
That Night
"And you wanted to take the babies." he laughed kicking off his shoes in the entrance to the house.
"I could have handled it." she laughed.
"A couple hours into it you looked drained." he watched her take her shoes off. "Come here." she walked over to him and he picked her up, carrying her up the stairs and into the bedroom. Safaree sat her on the bed.
"Thanks my feet are killing me. I'm glad mama kept the babies over night." She had something special planned for him. "I'm going to take a shower and all that jazz okay."
"I guess that's my hint to you want the room to yourself. I know when I'm not wanted. I'll go to my old room, I don;t have to take this." He got up and walked to the door. Nicki ran behind him and jumped on his back.
"I love you, shut up." She kissed his neck and jumped down. "Now go." she pushed him out the room. Nicki ran to the bathroom to start getting ready. After her shower she had to curl her real hair which was a process, but she knew he loved her hair curled so that's what she would do. She pulled out the new red bra and panty set she had just bought.
Two hours later she was slipping on her heels. She gave herself a once over in front of the mirror. She fixed the straps on her bra, then made sure the ruffles on the back of her underwear sat high enough as to not block her butt from his view. She slipped on her robe that stopped mid thigh and went to get to Safaree.
He heard her coming before she knocked on his door, he wondered why she didn't just open it like she always does. he got up and opened it.
"Oh shit." his dick immediately got hard. Her legs in those heels, which he had never seen before, looked amazing.
"Come with me." she took his hand and lead him down to her bedroom. He watched her butt jiggle with every stride. When he walked in it was like he got hit with a Chloe cloud, he loved the sent. "Sit." she pushed him onto the bed. Walking just out of his reach she turned with her back facing him and undid her robe. Letting it drop off her shoulders, she looked at his face and was satisfied at his reaction. He was smiling licking his lips. "You act like you haven't seen my ass before." she giggled.
"Not in those I haven't." he pointed. "It looks different in each pair of underwear you put on, always amazing but different." she shook her head and turning on her iPod on the surround sound speakers. She made sure her new favorite song Late Night/Early Mornings by Marsha Ambrosious was on repeat. "You gonna dance for me?"
"Shh you know I'm not good at this so let me concentrate." she smiled. She caught the beat and swayed her hips from side to side at first. Safaree watched the small of her back, he found that region of her body one of the sexiest. She bent over rolling her hips in a circle and looking back at Safaree. He was stroking himself through his pants, she could see the imprint of it on his leg which made her want to skip to the main event.
"Turn around babe." Safaree said. Shit, she thought. Nicki wasn't comfortable with showing her stomach. She figured she would turn out the lights before he could see her. She crossed her arms over her stomach and turned still dancing but blocking out the little bit of access skin, it was not really noticeable. "Move your arms babe." Nicki stopped moving and looked away from him.
Safaree hated when she go insecure. He needed her to know no matter what her body looked like he would love her just the same. He went to move her arms himself.
"No Safaree." she backed away. He stood up a bit and grabbed her waist pulling her to him. They wrestled but he eventually moved her arms. "Don't look." he stared at her face then kissed right above her belly button, and let it linger before moving to another spot and kissing her again.
"Don't ever try and hide your body from me." he kissed her again. "Your beautiful Nicki." She took a deep breath, pulling his head back she kissed him on the lips. Safaree slipped his tongue into her mouth and she happily excepted. She straddled his lap feeling his manhood under her thigh. He began kissing her breast she continued to hold his head. "I love you so much." she rocked her hips against him. He unclasped her bra in the front hurriedly pushing it from her shoulders. He licked and sucked on both her breast, biting a spot close to her right nipple. The sensation was amazing for her.
"Let me take care of you." she said breathlessly.
Nicki pushed him onto his back. She kissed all over his chest then down his stomach. Running her tongue over his abs she made eye contact with him, he was watching her every move.
"Lift your hips." she instructed. he complied and she stripped him of his pants and boxers. Her eyes lit up at his erect manhood. Grabbing it she stroked up and down making him moan. "Can I taste it?" she asked.
"Yeah go ahead." he licked his lips. Nicki moved his manhood to left and kissed the right side of his penis then added a suction sensation. "Fuck." he dropped his head onto the bed and enjoyed. Moving up to the head he slipped it inside her mouth then pulled it out, she licked down his shaft. Slipping it all the way in she went to work. Safaree lifted and moved the curls from around her face to watch her. "The things she does with her tongue." he thought. She came up for air. She stared at him while running her tongue along the side of his penis. "Do it." he said. She knew what it meant. Nicki deep throated him, he loved feeling the back of her throat. She did that a couple more times and he had to stop her before he came. "My turn." she moved and laid on her back catching her breath.
"Now I get to taste you." Safaree said removing her underwear. She grabbed a pillow and put it under her butt and another to put under her head. Safaree loved how her hair fell around her face. "I love your hair like that."
"I know." she bit her lip. "Now eat."
Safaree kissed and licked her inner thighs, he made sure he left a few marks. Taking his tongue he licked her whole center then closed his lips kissing it, he loved that she had a Brazilian.
"Sloppy?" he asked putting his index finger inside her, watching her expression. She gave a deep sigh from the sensation.
"You know I love it sloppy daddy." she arched her back at him adding another finger. He flicked his tongue across her pearl. Nicki gripped his head tighter, it had been close to a year since they had done the deed so she was extra sensitive.
"Mmmm you taste amazing." he leaned his head to the side so she could see his tongue in action. "The things he can do with his tongue, damn." she thought. Nicki moved herself against his tongue causing more friction. Her legs tightened slightly around his head as her body jerked a bit, she loosened her grip but he wasn't done. Hooking his arms under her thighs he rolled over on his back keeping her mound against his mouth. She looked down at his face.
"Damn you look sexy in this position." she braced herself on the headboard and began riding his face. Two orgasms later she was ready for the main event. "Safaree let me ride a different part of you." she said in between breaths.
"Okay." she lifted from his face and looked from his nose to his chin, it was a glazed like a Krispy Kream Donut. She bent down kissing him and cleaning his face as she did it.
"I taste good." she grinned.
"I told you."
"We need a condom." they both said together then laughed. Neither was trying to birth anymore young for awhile.
"I have some she said." reaching to her side of the bed in her drawer. She pulled out a big box of magnums.
"Damn babe."
"I don't want to ever run out. I don't think we can blow through all these." she laughed opening the box and taking three out, just in case.
"We can sure try." he kissed her thigh. She ripped the gold package open and threw it to the floor. She placed the condom over him. She stroked him with the condom on the hovered her womanhood over it.
"Go easy, it's been awhile."
"Don't I always." he winked. she gave him a look then eased down on to him completely. "Hey they didn't mess up my fit."
"I've missed being with you." she leaned back using his thighs for support and rolled her hips slowly. "have you missed me?" he shook his head yes. "Say it."
"I've missed you. You feel so good."
Nicki laid on his chest and he wrapped his arms around her waist watching he pop her lower region up and down on him. Nicki sucked on his ear and whispered things to him in Spanish. None of it had to do with sex but he didn't know that.
"Whoa!" Nicki said. Safaree had bucked hitting a spot that made her left leg quiver. "Do it again." she waited for it again. "I like that." She turned to where she was in the reverse cowgirl position, Safarees favorite. She threw her head back in pure Ecstasy. Her body was winding, and curls flowed down her back, the perfect view for Safaree. And on top of all that he had a great view of her ass. She bent forward popping her ass again, this time he slapped it numerous times and gripped it. "Damn Safaree." he sat up pulling her body to him. He kissed her back while massaging her breasts.
"On your knees." he said in her ear forcefully. It turned her on, she did what she was told.
Safaree put her body like he wanted it, face down, ass up, and he pushed down and arched her back just right and slid inside of her. Nicki flipped her hair to one side trying to view what was going on back there.
"Why you being nosy?" he slapped her ass. She clenched her walls around him biting her lower lip.
"I'm going to come Faree."
"Go ahead baby."
"Harder...faster." she managed to get out. "I need to..." she didn't get to finish her sentence because her orgasm hit hard and Safaree came right behind her.
Both dripping with sweat collapse onto the bed not saying anything for awhile all you heard was heavy breathing.
"I love you." Safaree said pulling Nickis body closer to him and kissing her cheek.
"I love you to babe." they laid in silence. Safaree played in her hair. "Tell me a poem."
"What?"
"Tell me a poem."
"Rose are red pickles are green I like your legs and what's in between." they both laughed.
"How romantic." she said. "We need to shower. And I need to tell you something."
"Yep." he kissed her breast then her lips. "After round two okay." he sucked on her neck.
"Okay Faree." she said as if she were defeated, his tongue was like kryptonite.
Next Day
"No Martin I said the Lilies go to my mother and the Cherry Blossoms go to Safarees mom." Nicki was in her silk pajama pants and matching tank. She had been up for about an hour on the phone taking care of business. Safaree stirred in the bed. "NO! Martin."
"NICKI!" Safaree yelled. She quickly walked out the room so she wouldn't disturb him.
"Martin I said the lockets where to be gold not silver." she went in and Ethans room and sat in his lazy boy. "Yeah that should be it for today. I'm taking a day off so do what I asked then you can do whatever, don;t call this phone unless it's an emergency." she hung up. She sat thinking, last night she had been so ready to tell Safaree but he wouldn't let her body rest, and who was she to tell her man no. By the time they were done sexing each other, showering and eating she was too tired to say anything. But she knew she needed to tell him, now was just as good as time as any.
Nicki walked back into the room and seen that Safaree had put on his PJ bottoms and was reading a letter. She looked at the dresser and noticed the the mail had been scattered out.
"Oh you found your letter. What's it say babe?"
He gave her the death glare. "You been taking fucking Caffeine pills Nicki?"
*Awwwwwww shit now! lol So I feel like I tapped into my Zane Flow, what you think? So what do you think of this chapter? Don't judge me, they needed to get freaky it has been a nearly a year! Y'all freaky fuh reading it! *mushes your face* Go comment!*
I Love this song! Take a listen.
"Nicki, over here."
"No Nicki this way."
"HB, HB." she turned to see a couple of familiar faces.
"Hi Barbs."
"Nicki we have to move inside now." she gave him her death glare. "It's getting to hectic out here, i need to be able to protect you." Big John her new bodyguard explained.
"Fine. Barbs I will see you inside. Its Barbie Bitchhhhhh." she made a crazy face then went inside the establishment.
The Barbs
Do you think she will remember us.. I mean I know she noticed us but will she KNOW us?" Jessie asked
"I hope so. She said she only had memory loss from a month or two before the incident." Shonda leaned on Jessie. They had been in line for hours waiting and of course Nicki was late.
Safaree came out out of the venue 30 minutes later because he was bored.
"Where my coons at?" That's all team Minaj needed to hear, they went crazy. It was not only Team Minaj NY but ATL, Michigan, Chicago, New Orleans, and D.C. They were 40 something deep. "Damn y'all wasn't playin this time around."
"You thought this was fuh play play my nig?" he looked over at Candiqueen.
"You forever got something to say." he laughed. "I need to take a picture and show her, she is not going to believe this." he took out his iPhone and snapped a picture. "I'll see y'all inside."
Safaree went back inside showing his laminate to security. He went to the back of Best Buy to show Nicki.
"Yo Nicki I got something to show you." Safaree said still looking at the picture.
"Just go, I don't want you here." Nicki turned to leave.
"Nicki just listen please." he grabbed her arm.
Safarees head snapped up at the sound of a familiar voice. Drake.
"Let go of me Drake." she twisted her arm.
"If you don't get you bitch ass hands off of her." Safaree ran up and was now chest to chest with Drake.
"I just wanted to talk to her."
"I don't give a fuck, what you wanted to do. If you ever touch her again i will put your ass six feet under."
"Is that a threat?"
"No bitch it's a promise. Now leave here and don't ever let me catch you anywhere near her again."
"Nicki we'll talk later." Drake walked away with his security behind him.
"I would like to see you try." Safaree yelled. He turned around to Nicki. "Did he hurt you?"
"No." she was holding her wrist where Drake had grabbed her.
"Let me see." she released her wrist for him to check it out. It was red but no bruising. "It's okay. What happen? How did he get to you?"
"I don't know. I had to use the bathroom but Big John was being prepped for later on so I told him I would go by myself. When I came out of the bathroom and started walking back he popped out of nowhere on some stalker, Micheal Myers type shit." she went from scared to mad. "Like who does he think he is, his ass should be locked up somewhere." she looked in the direction he went but he was no longer there anymore.
"You should have put him away when you had the chance." he clenched his jaw.
"What? When did anyone come to take my statement? They were supposed to come after I had the babies." he calmed down a bit and rubbed his face.
"They did Nicki, you don't remember. When they came you said he didn't have any involvement." she looked lost. "It's okay, we'll just get you more security. I shouldn't have left you." They began walking back towards the table she would be sitting at. "Big John let me holla at you real quick." Nicki saw the anger in his eyes.
"Safaree calm down please." she placed her hand on his chest.
"I'm just gone talk to him." he said kissing her forehead. He walked to a corner to talk. Her eyes stayer glued to them. She saw Safaree pointing her direction and got real close to his face. They both walked back to Nickis side.
"Sorry for not being there." he said then put on his shades and stepped back.
"It's okay." She sat down at the table her heels where killing her feet. "What did you have to show me?"
"Huh? Oh yeah look." he pulled his phone back out and showed her the picture. "They came from everywhere Nicki." she looked over the picture.
"Is that RBD? Oh lawd let me get ready for this child." She pointed to another girl. "She's from ATL I know but I can't remember her name. Can't wait to see them all again. You know what you should do, have them all pushed to a corner somewhere until the last person comes through so I can have more time with them."
"I'll see what I can do."
"Alright Nicki they are about to open the doors. Here is your basket full of Sharpies in different colors. They are going to put all the disabled people in front so they don't have to wait." Nicki shook her head in agreement to what Martin was saying. Nicki fumbled around in her purse looking for her pill box, once she found it she took a pill and sipped her water. Safaree wanted to know what the hell those pills where, so he had taken one out of her box and sent it to a friend that worked in a pharmacy. She should have it back to him by tomorrow.
"Okay I'm ready." she pulled out her silver sharpie out of the basket.
That Night
"And you wanted to take the babies." he laughed kicking off his shoes in the entrance to the house.
"I could have handled it." she laughed.
"A couple hours into it you looked drained." he watched her take her shoes off. "Come here." she walked over to him and he picked her up, carrying her up the stairs and into the bedroom. Safaree sat her on the bed.
"Thanks my feet are killing me. I'm glad mama kept the babies over night." She had something special planned for him. "I'm going to take a shower and all that jazz okay."
"I guess that's my hint to you want the room to yourself. I know when I'm not wanted. I'll go to my old room, I don;t have to take this." He got up and walked to the door. Nicki ran behind him and jumped on his back.
"I love you, shut up." She kissed his neck and jumped down. "Now go." she pushed him out the room. Nicki ran to the bathroom to start getting ready. After her shower she had to curl her real hair which was a process, but she knew he loved her hair curled so that's what she would do. She pulled out the new red bra and panty set she had just bought.
Two hours later she was slipping on her heels. She gave herself a once over in front of the mirror. She fixed the straps on her bra, then made sure the ruffles on the back of her underwear sat high enough as to not block her butt from his view. She slipped on her robe that stopped mid thigh and went to get to Safaree.
He heard her coming before she knocked on his door, he wondered why she didn't just open it like she always does. he got up and opened it.
"Oh shit." his dick immediately got hard. Her legs in those heels, which he had never seen before, looked amazing.
"Come with me." she took his hand and lead him down to her bedroom. He watched her butt jiggle with every stride. When he walked in it was like he got hit with a Chloe cloud, he loved the sent. "Sit." she pushed him onto the bed. Walking just out of his reach she turned with her back facing him and undid her robe. Letting it drop off her shoulders, she looked at his face and was satisfied at his reaction. He was smiling licking his lips. "You act like you haven't seen my ass before." she giggled.
"Not in those I haven't." he pointed. "It looks different in each pair of underwear you put on, always amazing but different." she shook her head and turning on her iPod on the surround sound speakers. She made sure her new favorite song Late Night/Early Mornings by Marsha Ambrosious was on repeat. "You gonna dance for me?"
"Shh you know I'm not good at this so let me concentrate." she smiled. She caught the beat and swayed her hips from side to side at first. Safaree watched the small of her back, he found that region of her body one of the sexiest. She bent over rolling her hips in a circle and looking back at Safaree. He was stroking himself through his pants, she could see the imprint of it on his leg which made her want to skip to the main event.
"Turn around babe." Safaree said. Shit, she thought. Nicki wasn't comfortable with showing her stomach. She figured she would turn out the lights before he could see her. She crossed her arms over her stomach and turned still dancing but blocking out the little bit of access skin, it was not really noticeable. "Move your arms babe." Nicki stopped moving and looked away from him.
Safaree hated when she go insecure. He needed her to know no matter what her body looked like he would love her just the same. He went to move her arms himself.
"No Safaree." she backed away. He stood up a bit and grabbed her waist pulling her to him. They wrestled but he eventually moved her arms. "Don't look." he stared at her face then kissed right above her belly button, and let it linger before moving to another spot and kissing her again.
"Don't ever try and hide your body from me." he kissed her again. "Your beautiful Nicki." She took a deep breath, pulling his head back she kissed him on the lips. Safaree slipped his tongue into her mouth and she happily excepted. She straddled his lap feeling his manhood under her thigh. He began kissing her breast she continued to hold his head. "I love you so much." she rocked her hips against him. He unclasped her bra in the front hurriedly pushing it from her shoulders. He licked and sucked on both her breast, biting a spot close to her right nipple. The sensation was amazing for her.
"Let me take care of you." she said breathlessly.
Nicki pushed him onto his back. She kissed all over his chest then down his stomach. Running her tongue over his abs she made eye contact with him, he was watching her every move.
"Lift your hips." she instructed. he complied and she stripped him of his pants and boxers. Her eyes lit up at his erect manhood. Grabbing it she stroked up and down making him moan. "Can I taste it?" she asked.
"Yeah go ahead." he licked his lips. Nicki moved his manhood to left and kissed the right side of his penis then added a suction sensation. "Fuck." he dropped his head onto the bed and enjoyed. Moving up to the head he slipped it inside her mouth then pulled it out, she licked down his shaft. Slipping it all the way in she went to work. Safaree lifted and moved the curls from around her face to watch her. "The things she does with her tongue." he thought. She came up for air. She stared at him while running her tongue along the side of his penis. "Do it." he said. She knew what it meant. Nicki deep throated him, he loved feeling the back of her throat. She did that a couple more times and he had to stop her before he came. "My turn." she moved and laid on her back catching her breath.
"Now I get to taste you." Safaree said removing her underwear. She grabbed a pillow and put it under her butt and another to put under her head. Safaree loved how her hair fell around her face. "I love your hair like that."
"I know." she bit her lip. "Now eat."
Safaree kissed and licked her inner thighs, he made sure he left a few marks. Taking his tongue he licked her whole center then closed his lips kissing it, he loved that she had a Brazilian.
"Sloppy?" he asked putting his index finger inside her, watching her expression. She gave a deep sigh from the sensation.
"You know I love it sloppy daddy." she arched her back at him adding another finger. He flicked his tongue across her pearl. Nicki gripped his head tighter, it had been close to a year since they had done the deed so she was extra sensitive.
"Mmmm you taste amazing." he leaned his head to the side so she could see his tongue in action. "The things he can do with his tongue, damn." she thought. Nicki moved herself against his tongue causing more friction. Her legs tightened slightly around his head as her body jerked a bit, she loosened her grip but he wasn't done. Hooking his arms under her thighs he rolled over on his back keeping her mound against his mouth. She looked down at his face.
"Damn you look sexy in this position." she braced herself on the headboard and began riding his face. Two orgasms later she was ready for the main event. "Safaree let me ride a different part of you." she said in between breaths.
"Okay." she lifted from his face and looked from his nose to his chin, it was a glazed like a Krispy Kream Donut. She bent down kissing him and cleaning his face as she did it.
"I taste good." she grinned.
"I told you."
"We need a condom." they both said together then laughed. Neither was trying to birth anymore young for awhile.
"I have some she said." reaching to her side of the bed in her drawer. She pulled out a big box of magnums.
"Damn babe."
"I don't want to ever run out. I don't think we can blow through all these." she laughed opening the box and taking three out, just in case.
"We can sure try." he kissed her thigh. She ripped the gold package open and threw it to the floor. She placed the condom over him. She stroked him with the condom on the hovered her womanhood over it.
"Go easy, it's been awhile."
"Don't I always." he winked. she gave him a look then eased down on to him completely. "Hey they didn't mess up my fit."
"I've missed being with you." she leaned back using his thighs for support and rolled her hips slowly. "have you missed me?" he shook his head yes. "Say it."
"I've missed you. You feel so good."
Nicki laid on his chest and he wrapped his arms around her waist watching he pop her lower region up and down on him. Nicki sucked on his ear and whispered things to him in Spanish. None of it had to do with sex but he didn't know that.
"Whoa!" Nicki said. Safaree had bucked hitting a spot that made her left leg quiver. "Do it again." she waited for it again. "I like that." She turned to where she was in the reverse cowgirl position, Safarees favorite. She threw her head back in pure Ecstasy. Her body was winding, and curls flowed down her back, the perfect view for Safaree. And on top of all that he had a great view of her ass. She bent forward popping her ass again, this time he slapped it numerous times and gripped it. "Damn Safaree." he sat up pulling her body to him. He kissed her back while massaging her breasts.
"On your knees." he said in her ear forcefully. It turned her on, she did what she was told.
Safaree put her body like he wanted it, face down, ass up, and he pushed down and arched her back just right and slid inside of her. Nicki flipped her hair to one side trying to view what was going on back there.
"Why you being nosy?" he slapped her ass. She clenched her walls around him biting her lower lip.
"I'm going to come Faree."
"Go ahead baby."
"Harder...faster." she managed to get out. "I need to..." she didn't get to finish her sentence because her orgasm hit hard and Safaree came right behind her.
Both dripping with sweat collapse onto the bed not saying anything for awhile all you heard was heavy breathing.
"I love you." Safaree said pulling Nickis body closer to him and kissing her cheek.
"I love you to babe." they laid in silence. Safaree played in her hair. "Tell me a poem."
"What?"
"Tell me a poem."
"Rose are red pickles are green I like your legs and what's in between." they both laughed.
"How romantic." she said. "We need to shower. And I need to tell you something."
"Yep." he kissed her breast then her lips. "After round two okay." he sucked on her neck.
"Okay Faree." she said as if she were defeated, his tongue was like kryptonite.
Next Day
"No Martin I said the Lilies go to my mother and the Cherry Blossoms go to Safarees mom." Nicki was in her silk pajama pants and matching tank. She had been up for about an hour on the phone taking care of business. Safaree stirred in the bed. "NO! Martin."
"NICKI!" Safaree yelled. She quickly walked out the room so she wouldn't disturb him.
"Martin I said the lockets where to be gold not silver." she went in and Ethans room and sat in his lazy boy. "Yeah that should be it for today. I'm taking a day off so do what I asked then you can do whatever, don;t call this phone unless it's an emergency." she hung up. She sat thinking, last night she had been so ready to tell Safaree but he wouldn't let her body rest, and who was she to tell her man no. By the time they were done sexing each other, showering and eating she was too tired to say anything. But she knew she needed to tell him, now was just as good as time as any.
Nicki walked back into the room and seen that Safaree had put on his PJ bottoms and was reading a letter. She looked at the dresser and noticed the the mail had been scattered out.
"Oh you found your letter. What's it say babe?"
He gave her the death glare. "You been taking fucking Caffeine pills Nicki?"
*Awwwwwww shit now! lol So I feel like I tapped into my Zane Flow, what you think? So what do you think of this chapter? Don't judge me, they needed to get freaky it has been a nearly a year! Y'all freaky fuh reading it! *mushes your face* Go comment!*
I Love this song! Take a listen.
Friday, December 23, 2011
Persuasion....
*You Love me. lol Enjoy!*
As weeks went by Nickis memory was coming back and she was slowly remembering things. Safaree was still uneasy about leaving her alone with the babies. He never felt she would hurt them but to the girls she just wasn't as attentive as she was with Ethan.
Nicki had been in the studio and shooting videos for a couple of songs nonstop since she got the clearance. She was getting her rest but it's still not enough. She had been taking caffeine pills to stay awake, she was sick of everyone asking her if she needed a break. She had something important to tell Safaree but didn't want him to freak out, and go over the top. She had so many things going through her head but the thing that was at the front of her mind was food at the moment.
"Terrence what's on the catering table?"
"They have everything. Your fav is over there, popeyes."
"Oooo is it the spicy kind?"
"It's mixed." Nicki slipped on her uggs and hopped up rushing to the table. She grabbed a plate and grabbed a leg and a thigh. She glanced to the left and caught a glimpse of the carrot cake. She grabbed a big slice of that and went back to the couch where Terrence and Day were sitting.
"Are you supposed to be eating that?" Day asked. Nicki remained silent.
"Silence means she know she not." she yawned then put another piece of chicken in her mouth.
"Do you need a break?" Terrence asked.
"No Terrence, I don't." she picked up her phone.
@NICKIMINAJ
What ya doin Barbs? Terrence is making me eat Chicken and Carrot Cake. He knows I'm not supposed to eat this stuff.
"Why do you lie?" Terrence asked staring at his phone. Nicki laughed.
"Hey sexy." Nicki heard in her ear and smiled.
"I don't think my man would appreciate you being so close to me."
"Mmm then I guess we better not get caught then." Safaree kissed her neck.
"Y'all so nasty."
"Yeah get a room." Day said getting up and leaving to go clean her brushes. Terrence followed behind her.
Safaree sat next to Nicki pulling her into his lap, her feet were dangling.
"Gimme some." Nicki took a piece and put it in his mouth.
"What are the babies doing?"
"Sleeping. Your mother said Daria was a little fussy today."
"She probably wasn't holding her right. She is such a little picky ladybug."
"Like her mommy."
"I'm not picky sir." she sat her plate down. "So what do you wanna do when we get out of here?" she put her arms around his neck and laid her head on his chest.
"It's going to be close to four, there is nothing we can do."
"I can think of a couple of things." Nicki sucked on his earlobe. They were towards the back of the establishment so they couldn't be seen. She kissed on his neck, trying to leave a passion mark.
"Nicki why are you doing this here." he put his hands on her waist. They hadn't had sex in nearly a year. Yeah they didn't it one time during the pregnancy but it wasn't how they usually get down, so neither counted that night.
"You haven't touched me since I've been home babe, is it because of my weight?"
"Nicki you are not big. You have been working out like crazy since you have been home, so stop. We both have been busy but as soon as we start our break, you betta believe this ass is mine." he bit the top of her breast.
"Ow Faree." she giggled. "That's going to leave a mark. Now Day is going to know what we were doing back here when I ask her to cover this up with make up."
"I'm sure the one on my neck is way worse than yours. Let me kiss it and make it feel better."
"NO! Get away from it." She tried getting up but he had a tight grip on her waist. She now had her back to his chest.
"Don't go. Stay until this goes down." She felt what 'This' was under her butt. She looked back at him with her eyes wide. "Don't give me that look, you did this on purpose."
"I'm sorry." she shifted.
"Don't move Nic, damn." his Manhood was now right in between her butt cheeks. She thought she would have a little fun with him.
"Don't do what? This?" she slid down a little in his lap. Safaree was doing his best not to rip her clothes from her and take her right where they sat. "Or this?" she glided her butt back towards him.
"Nicki go." he released her hips. he figured 'This' would go away quicker without her on top of it.
"No I'm comfy now." she giggled.
"No you think what you're doing is okay and it's not. Go talk to Day or something."
"Don't quote my shit against me Nigga." she got up and looked down at his erection. "Damn shame that's going to go to waist."
"Nicki we have to get your wig on, so come on and stop flirting with Safaree."
"Gotta go babe." she turned and left him. He sat with a pillow over his lower region for a good 15 minutes before he got up and went to watch Nicki on set.
40 minutes later they were waiting on the next set up, Nicki was laying with her head in Safarees lap napping. He was on twitter messing with the Barbs. Safaree looked up to see the Director signalling that they were ready for her.
"Nicki wake up." she stirred but didn't move. "Come on Nic wake up."
"What for Safaree, I'm tired." she mumbled.
"You have one more shot then i will take you home and put you to bed." she popped up quickly.
"Shit, how long was I sleep?"
"Only 20 minutes." she stretched.
"Can you hand me my purse and water." He grabbed both placing them beside her.
Nicki opened her pill case and grabbed a Caffeine pill and swallowed it with her water. Safaree had never seen that pill before today.
"Nicki what kind of pill is that?"
"It's just a vitamin babe." she kissed his lips. "Does my breath stink?"
"I love how you wait till after you kiss me to ask if you have dragon breath."
"Oh you love me shut up." she slipped her heels on her feet.
"That don't mean I want to smell your hot ass breath."
"My breath is not hot."
"Not right now." She flipped her hair and walked away with her hose turned up in the air. "Such a drama queen."
--
2.14.12 [4 a.m.]
@NICKIMINAJ
Rise and shine Barbs. *Jumps on all your beds* Guess what today is? Guess, guess, GUESSSS?
@SCAFFBEEZY
She is literally standing in the bed tweeting y'all. It's to early for this Ish. *Pulls her back down under the covers*
@NICKIMINAJ
Well I'm tucked back in Barbs, I'll tweet again when I get back up. MUAHHH!
6am
"Can we wake up now?" Nicki whispered in Safarees ear.
"You can, what time is it?"
"6:05"
"Wake me up in a hour." He rolled over and threw the covers over his head.
Nicki got out of the bed and took her shower. She threw on some of Safarees sweats and his t-shirt then checked on the kids. She excepted that she had children and tried to make the best of the situation. Her full memory of the birth hadn't come back yet. She had always loved children so it wasn't hard for her to become attached to the children. They were getting bigger. She leaned over the girls Crib and seen that Zaria was up.
"Hey mama. How long have you been up?" she picked her up from out of the crib. "Why didn't you let someone know you were up, you could have kept mommy company?" Nicki kissed her cheek and Zaria cooed. "Baby girl you stink." Nicki laid her on the changing station and cleaned her up.
"There you go, all clean." Nicki sat in the glider. "Do you know what today is?" she stared at Zaria and Zaria stared back. "Well since you want to be a DIVA and not speak I'll tell you. Today is the release of mommies second album." Zaria smiled showing her gums. "I know, I'm excited too." Zaria reached for Nickis breast. "That's all you do is eat." she gave her access to her breast and she latched on. "Well back to my story. I'm going to try and talk daddy into bring you guys with us so the barbs can meet you. Who are the Barbs you ask? Hmmm.... They are a group of people who love mommy and daddy very much. They are kinda like my babies as well, they are very spoiled. Kinda how you are going to be." Zaria scrunched up her nose. "Don't wrinkle your nose at me missy, you are going to be spoiled. I can already tell your going to be a daddies girl. And he is a sucker for a pretty girl with long eyelashes. I should know don't you think?" they looked at each other again. "That's what I thought." Nicki saw movement in the crib. "Looks like sissy is up. Are done so she can eat too?" To Nicki it looked like Zaria rolled her eyes then shut them and continued eating. "You are so rude." She stood up and looked in the crib, Daria had her fist in her mouth. She just laid there quietly.
A couple of minutes later Zaria had been burped and put in her rocker. She picked up Daria and resumed her previous conversation.
"So what do you think mommy should wear today? Should It be something simple?" she looked and Daria kind of squinted her eye. "Yeah I know, nothing about mommy is simple. But what to wear D-Baby? Let's go raid my closet." she looked over at Zaria who was passed out. "You think She will be okay for a few minutes?...You don't care as long as your eating. Let's go check on your brudda, then we can have girl time." They checked in on a sleeping Ethan then went back into the bedroom. "Shh we can't wake up daddy. He still has 15 more minutes to sleep. You'll learn he likes to get every minute he can." In the closet the pair went through a couple dozen outfits, finally settling on two. They would get Safarees opinion when he woke up. Nicki looked back down at Daria. "Well when did you fall asleep on me? You can't hang just like your sister. Time to put you back down." she fixed herself then walked back out the closet, she looked over at the clock it read 7:11.
"Safaree babe." she said startling Daria. "Mommies sorry." she bounced her a little while walking towards Safaree and nudging him awake. "Babe it's time to get up.'
"I am up." he stated with his eyes still closed and body still wrapped tightly in the covers.
"No get out the bed. I'm not leaving you alone until you are standing in front of me." She poked him in his side, messed with his ears, and slapped him on the butt. Finally she went to the bottom of the bed and moved the comforter, exposing his feet. She began tickling his feet he moved them quickly.
"Stop."
"Well wake ya ass up then we have things to do today." Safaree slowly rose from the bed and walked toward Nicki stopping in front of her rubbing his eyes. "Aww my other baby." she poked her lips out for a kiss.
"No I haven't brushed my teeth yet."
"I don't care, gimme my lips boy." he shrugged then planted a kiss on her lips. "Now take your daughter and burp her while I go change and feed your son." She watched Safarees big frame cradle Daria and walk out the door. She made up the bed then headed towards Ethans room. Just like she had found the other two, he was wide eyed and quiet. "What is up with you three, yall don't make no type of alert sounds." she picked him up. "Hows mamas baby?" He tried lifting his head but failed. "Look at you, trying to be all strong but chile that head of yours is to big to be trying to lift." she changed him then sat in the lazy boy and propped her feet up on the foot rest. "So you hungry to? I know you are, here." she watched him feed. "So we have to think of a way to get Daddy to agree with taking you three with me. Any suggestions?" she looked at him but he was focused on eating. "Your absolutely no help sir, at least your sisters gave input." she kept staring at him. "Maybe I can make him a really great breakfast. And he'll be happy and full and I'll give him my cute and innocent face then ask him. You think that will work?" he grinned showing his small dimple then went back to eating. "We brainstorm good together sir, thats why your mamas little man." Nicki drifted off into her thoughts then she heard and felt Ethan throw up. "This is so not cool little one." she grabbed his cloth and cleaned both of them up. She laid him on the changing table taking off both her shirt and his onsie. "Your just gonna be around here like your daddy, in only your underwear." she sat him in his swing and sat with him until he fell back to sleep.
Nicki found a new shirt and headed down stairs to start breakfast while Safaree was in the shower. She looked around her kitchen and tried to figure out breakfast. She decided on making him a breakfast burrito with ham, sausage, bacon, eggs, cheese, and green peppers. With a side of fried potatoes, he would be in heaven since she never let him eat this way. She figured if she couldn't eat it then he needed to suffer with her!
Twenty minutes later Safaree came down stairs after checking on the babies, all which were still sleep. he sniffed the air and smiled.
"Pork." he said with a smile. He went into the kitchen and seen Nicki from behind trying to get his pants to stay over her hips. "Damn you look sexy, I love it when you wear my clothes."
She turned around, "You don't look bad yaself. Your son looks like you right now."
"I seen him. Got his little bird chest all exposed."
"What? My son got pecks." she stuck her chest out and flexed.
"Deflate your chest girl. What you cooking up?"
"Food. Go sit down. Do you want coffee, orange juice, or apple juice?"
"Apple." he sat down waiting on whatever she had cooked him. Nicki finished wrapping the burrito, it was huge, and sat it on a plate. Along side a English muffin and strawberries. She walked over and sat it in front of him.
"Enjoy and don't forget to say your grace."
"You're not joining me?"
"I ate as I cooked." She started to clean up the kitchen.
"This is good babe. You never cook like this anymore, not unless you wan--" he stopped then looked at her. She looked up at him. "What do you want Nicki?" She realized she was going to have to put in a little more work. She sauntered over to him and straddled his lap.
"Why do I have to want something to cook my man a good meal?' she picked up a strawberry and placed it between her teeth and leaned in for Safaree to take it, which he did. Resulting in a quick lip lock. "I just want you to be well fed for today because we both know from the last CD signing to day is going to be a hectic day." she picked up his burrito and put to his mouth for him to bite. "I felt you deserved a breath from all the healthy food, so I gave you the kinda of breakfast you love." she kissed him again.
"Okay, I believe you." he sipped his juice.
"Safaree." she kissed his cheek.
"Hmm?" he placed another strawberry in his mouth.
"I was thinking while you were sleeping." she kissed his neck while feeling up his body.
"About?"
"Well I wanted to take the babies out with us today, since they haven't been anywhere besides the doctors since they came home from the hospital."
"Nope."
"Why not Faree?" she licked his ear lobe.
"Because they are not ready to be around a whole bunch of people. Especially since it's cold outside and there are so many viruses floating around. No, you will not subject my babies to that."
"Our babies." she sat up and pouted. "Nobody is going to touch them SB, I want people to see my...our kids. Pweaseeee?" she hugged his neck.
"Nicki no, so if this whole unhealthy breakfast was to get me to say yes, then it has been a big epic fail." he said smiling.
She refused to let him know that was the reason. "That's not why I made you the damn breakfast Safaree." She got off his lap. He took another bite of his burrito.
"Well thank you then, it was very thoughtful of you."
"Mhhm. Clean up this mess when your done." She left the kitchen sad her plan didn't work. She peeked in on Ethan she seen that Safaree had put on another onsie. She was going to bathe them but since they are not going anywhere anytime soon she would let auntie Lauren and auntie Candi have fun with that.
Nicki went to go get ready for Terrence and day to arrive. She would let them collaborate on which outfit she should wear, since Safaree was being a jerk. She took a caffeine pill then sipped her bottle of water. She laid in her bed and tried to get mentally prepared for the mayhem known as, Team Minaj.
*Hope it's going how you want it to go. If not, well...you'll be okay! lol Comment below. Tell me how you feel about her relationship with the babies. Do you think she is really growing a bond with the babies or do you think she is forcing herself to have one? What do you think she needs to ell Safaree?*
As weeks went by Nickis memory was coming back and she was slowly remembering things. Safaree was still uneasy about leaving her alone with the babies. He never felt she would hurt them but to the girls she just wasn't as attentive as she was with Ethan.
Nicki had been in the studio and shooting videos for a couple of songs nonstop since she got the clearance. She was getting her rest but it's still not enough. She had been taking caffeine pills to stay awake, she was sick of everyone asking her if she needed a break. She had something important to tell Safaree but didn't want him to freak out, and go over the top. She had so many things going through her head but the thing that was at the front of her mind was food at the moment.
"Terrence what's on the catering table?"
"They have everything. Your fav is over there, popeyes."
"Oooo is it the spicy kind?"
"It's mixed." Nicki slipped on her uggs and hopped up rushing to the table. She grabbed a plate and grabbed a leg and a thigh. She glanced to the left and caught a glimpse of the carrot cake. She grabbed a big slice of that and went back to the couch where Terrence and Day were sitting.
"Are you supposed to be eating that?" Day asked. Nicki remained silent.
"Silence means she know she not." she yawned then put another piece of chicken in her mouth.
"Do you need a break?" Terrence asked.
"No Terrence, I don't." she picked up her phone.
@NICKIMINAJ
What ya doin Barbs? Terrence is making me eat Chicken and Carrot Cake. He knows I'm not supposed to eat this stuff.
"Why do you lie?" Terrence asked staring at his phone. Nicki laughed.
"Hey sexy." Nicki heard in her ear and smiled.
"I don't think my man would appreciate you being so close to me."
"Mmm then I guess we better not get caught then." Safaree kissed her neck.
"Y'all so nasty."
"Yeah get a room." Day said getting up and leaving to go clean her brushes. Terrence followed behind her.
Safaree sat next to Nicki pulling her into his lap, her feet were dangling.
"Gimme some." Nicki took a piece and put it in his mouth.
"What are the babies doing?"
"Sleeping. Your mother said Daria was a little fussy today."
"She probably wasn't holding her right. She is such a little picky ladybug."
"Like her mommy."
"I'm not picky sir." she sat her plate down. "So what do you wanna do when we get out of here?" she put her arms around his neck and laid her head on his chest.
"It's going to be close to four, there is nothing we can do."
"I can think of a couple of things." Nicki sucked on his earlobe. They were towards the back of the establishment so they couldn't be seen. She kissed on his neck, trying to leave a passion mark.
"Nicki why are you doing this here." he put his hands on her waist. They hadn't had sex in nearly a year. Yeah they didn't it one time during the pregnancy but it wasn't how they usually get down, so neither counted that night.
"You haven't touched me since I've been home babe, is it because of my weight?"
"Nicki you are not big. You have been working out like crazy since you have been home, so stop. We both have been busy but as soon as we start our break, you betta believe this ass is mine." he bit the top of her breast.
"Ow Faree." she giggled. "That's going to leave a mark. Now Day is going to know what we were doing back here when I ask her to cover this up with make up."
"I'm sure the one on my neck is way worse than yours. Let me kiss it and make it feel better."
"NO! Get away from it." She tried getting up but he had a tight grip on her waist. She now had her back to his chest.
"Don't go. Stay until this goes down." She felt what 'This' was under her butt. She looked back at him with her eyes wide. "Don't give me that look, you did this on purpose."
"I'm sorry." she shifted.
"Don't move Nic, damn." his Manhood was now right in between her butt cheeks. She thought she would have a little fun with him.
"Don't do what? This?" she slid down a little in his lap. Safaree was doing his best not to rip her clothes from her and take her right where they sat. "Or this?" she glided her butt back towards him.
"Nicki go." he released her hips. he figured 'This' would go away quicker without her on top of it.
"No I'm comfy now." she giggled.
"No you think what you're doing is okay and it's not. Go talk to Day or something."
"Don't quote my shit against me Nigga." she got up and looked down at his erection. "Damn shame that's going to go to waist."
"Nicki we have to get your wig on, so come on and stop flirting with Safaree."
"Gotta go babe." she turned and left him. He sat with a pillow over his lower region for a good 15 minutes before he got up and went to watch Nicki on set.
40 minutes later they were waiting on the next set up, Nicki was laying with her head in Safarees lap napping. He was on twitter messing with the Barbs. Safaree looked up to see the Director signalling that they were ready for her.
"Nicki wake up." she stirred but didn't move. "Come on Nic wake up."
"What for Safaree, I'm tired." she mumbled.
"You have one more shot then i will take you home and put you to bed." she popped up quickly.
"Shit, how long was I sleep?"
"Only 20 minutes." she stretched.
"Can you hand me my purse and water." He grabbed both placing them beside her.
Nicki opened her pill case and grabbed a Caffeine pill and swallowed it with her water. Safaree had never seen that pill before today.
"Nicki what kind of pill is that?"
"It's just a vitamin babe." she kissed his lips. "Does my breath stink?"
"I love how you wait till after you kiss me to ask if you have dragon breath."
"Oh you love me shut up." she slipped her heels on her feet.
"That don't mean I want to smell your hot ass breath."
"My breath is not hot."
"Not right now." She flipped her hair and walked away with her hose turned up in the air. "Such a drama queen."
--
2.14.12 [4 a.m.]
@NICKIMINAJ
Rise and shine Barbs. *Jumps on all your beds* Guess what today is? Guess, guess, GUESSSS?
@SCAFFBEEZY
She is literally standing in the bed tweeting y'all. It's to early for this Ish. *Pulls her back down under the covers*
@NICKIMINAJ
Well I'm tucked back in Barbs, I'll tweet again when I get back up. MUAHHH!
6am
"Can we wake up now?" Nicki whispered in Safarees ear.
"You can, what time is it?"
"6:05"
"Wake me up in a hour." He rolled over and threw the covers over his head.
Nicki got out of the bed and took her shower. She threw on some of Safarees sweats and his t-shirt then checked on the kids. She excepted that she had children and tried to make the best of the situation. Her full memory of the birth hadn't come back yet. She had always loved children so it wasn't hard for her to become attached to the children. They were getting bigger. She leaned over the girls Crib and seen that Zaria was up.
"Hey mama. How long have you been up?" she picked her up from out of the crib. "Why didn't you let someone know you were up, you could have kept mommy company?" Nicki kissed her cheek and Zaria cooed. "Baby girl you stink." Nicki laid her on the changing station and cleaned her up.
"There you go, all clean." Nicki sat in the glider. "Do you know what today is?" she stared at Zaria and Zaria stared back. "Well since you want to be a DIVA and not speak I'll tell you. Today is the release of mommies second album." Zaria smiled showing her gums. "I know, I'm excited too." Zaria reached for Nickis breast. "That's all you do is eat." she gave her access to her breast and she latched on. "Well back to my story. I'm going to try and talk daddy into bring you guys with us so the barbs can meet you. Who are the Barbs you ask? Hmmm.... They are a group of people who love mommy and daddy very much. They are kinda like my babies as well, they are very spoiled. Kinda how you are going to be." Zaria scrunched up her nose. "Don't wrinkle your nose at me missy, you are going to be spoiled. I can already tell your going to be a daddies girl. And he is a sucker for a pretty girl with long eyelashes. I should know don't you think?" they looked at each other again. "That's what I thought." Nicki saw movement in the crib. "Looks like sissy is up. Are done so she can eat too?" To Nicki it looked like Zaria rolled her eyes then shut them and continued eating. "You are so rude." She stood up and looked in the crib, Daria had her fist in her mouth. She just laid there quietly.
A couple of minutes later Zaria had been burped and put in her rocker. She picked up Daria and resumed her previous conversation.
"So what do you think mommy should wear today? Should It be something simple?" she looked and Daria kind of squinted her eye. "Yeah I know, nothing about mommy is simple. But what to wear D-Baby? Let's go raid my closet." she looked over at Zaria who was passed out. "You think She will be okay for a few minutes?...You don't care as long as your eating. Let's go check on your brudda, then we can have girl time." They checked in on a sleeping Ethan then went back into the bedroom. "Shh we can't wake up daddy. He still has 15 more minutes to sleep. You'll learn he likes to get every minute he can." In the closet the pair went through a couple dozen outfits, finally settling on two. They would get Safarees opinion when he woke up. Nicki looked back down at Daria. "Well when did you fall asleep on me? You can't hang just like your sister. Time to put you back down." she fixed herself then walked back out the closet, she looked over at the clock it read 7:11.
"Safaree babe." she said startling Daria. "Mommies sorry." she bounced her a little while walking towards Safaree and nudging him awake. "Babe it's time to get up.'
"I am up." he stated with his eyes still closed and body still wrapped tightly in the covers.
"No get out the bed. I'm not leaving you alone until you are standing in front of me." She poked him in his side, messed with his ears, and slapped him on the butt. Finally she went to the bottom of the bed and moved the comforter, exposing his feet. She began tickling his feet he moved them quickly.
"Stop."
"Well wake ya ass up then we have things to do today." Safaree slowly rose from the bed and walked toward Nicki stopping in front of her rubbing his eyes. "Aww my other baby." she poked her lips out for a kiss.
"No I haven't brushed my teeth yet."
"I don't care, gimme my lips boy." he shrugged then planted a kiss on her lips. "Now take your daughter and burp her while I go change and feed your son." She watched Safarees big frame cradle Daria and walk out the door. She made up the bed then headed towards Ethans room. Just like she had found the other two, he was wide eyed and quiet. "What is up with you three, yall don't make no type of alert sounds." she picked him up. "Hows mamas baby?" He tried lifting his head but failed. "Look at you, trying to be all strong but chile that head of yours is to big to be trying to lift." she changed him then sat in the lazy boy and propped her feet up on the foot rest. "So you hungry to? I know you are, here." she watched him feed. "So we have to think of a way to get Daddy to agree with taking you three with me. Any suggestions?" she looked at him but he was focused on eating. "Your absolutely no help sir, at least your sisters gave input." she kept staring at him. "Maybe I can make him a really great breakfast. And he'll be happy and full and I'll give him my cute and innocent face then ask him. You think that will work?" he grinned showing his small dimple then went back to eating. "We brainstorm good together sir, thats why your mamas little man." Nicki drifted off into her thoughts then she heard and felt Ethan throw up. "This is so not cool little one." she grabbed his cloth and cleaned both of them up. She laid him on the changing table taking off both her shirt and his onsie. "Your just gonna be around here like your daddy, in only your underwear." she sat him in his swing and sat with him until he fell back to sleep.
Nicki found a new shirt and headed down stairs to start breakfast while Safaree was in the shower. She looked around her kitchen and tried to figure out breakfast. She decided on making him a breakfast burrito with ham, sausage, bacon, eggs, cheese, and green peppers. With a side of fried potatoes, he would be in heaven since she never let him eat this way. She figured if she couldn't eat it then he needed to suffer with her!
Twenty minutes later Safaree came down stairs after checking on the babies, all which were still sleep. he sniffed the air and smiled.
"Pork." he said with a smile. He went into the kitchen and seen Nicki from behind trying to get his pants to stay over her hips. "Damn you look sexy, I love it when you wear my clothes."
She turned around, "You don't look bad yaself. Your son looks like you right now."
"I seen him. Got his little bird chest all exposed."
"What? My son got pecks." she stuck her chest out and flexed.
"Deflate your chest girl. What you cooking up?"
"Food. Go sit down. Do you want coffee, orange juice, or apple juice?"
"Apple." he sat down waiting on whatever she had cooked him. Nicki finished wrapping the burrito, it was huge, and sat it on a plate. Along side a English muffin and strawberries. She walked over and sat it in front of him.
"Enjoy and don't forget to say your grace."
"You're not joining me?"
"I ate as I cooked." She started to clean up the kitchen.
"This is good babe. You never cook like this anymore, not unless you wan--" he stopped then looked at her. She looked up at him. "What do you want Nicki?" She realized she was going to have to put in a little more work. She sauntered over to him and straddled his lap.
"Why do I have to want something to cook my man a good meal?' she picked up a strawberry and placed it between her teeth and leaned in for Safaree to take it, which he did. Resulting in a quick lip lock. "I just want you to be well fed for today because we both know from the last CD signing to day is going to be a hectic day." she picked up his burrito and put to his mouth for him to bite. "I felt you deserved a breath from all the healthy food, so I gave you the kinda of breakfast you love." she kissed him again.
"Okay, I believe you." he sipped his juice.
"Safaree." she kissed his cheek.
"Hmm?" he placed another strawberry in his mouth.
"I was thinking while you were sleeping." she kissed his neck while feeling up his body.
"About?"
"Well I wanted to take the babies out with us today, since they haven't been anywhere besides the doctors since they came home from the hospital."
"Nope."
"Why not Faree?" she licked his ear lobe.
"Because they are not ready to be around a whole bunch of people. Especially since it's cold outside and there are so many viruses floating around. No, you will not subject my babies to that."
"Our babies." she sat up and pouted. "Nobody is going to touch them SB, I want people to see my...our kids. Pweaseeee?" she hugged his neck.
"Nicki no, so if this whole unhealthy breakfast was to get me to say yes, then it has been a big epic fail." he said smiling.
She refused to let him know that was the reason. "That's not why I made you the damn breakfast Safaree." She got off his lap. He took another bite of his burrito.
"Well thank you then, it was very thoughtful of you."
"Mhhm. Clean up this mess when your done." She left the kitchen sad her plan didn't work. She peeked in on Ethan she seen that Safaree had put on another onsie. She was going to bathe them but since they are not going anywhere anytime soon she would let auntie Lauren and auntie Candi have fun with that.
Nicki went to go get ready for Terrence and day to arrive. She would let them collaborate on which outfit she should wear, since Safaree was being a jerk. She took a caffeine pill then sipped her bottle of water. She laid in her bed and tried to get mentally prepared for the mayhem known as, Team Minaj.
*Hope it's going how you want it to go. If not, well...you'll be okay! lol Comment below. Tell me how you feel about her relationship with the babies. Do you think she is really growing a bond with the babies or do you think she is forcing herself to have one? What do you think she needs to ell Safaree?*
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